Refugee

Absolutely love this song. For the last couple of days, since my surgery last Tuesday, many things have been popping in my dreams, have no idea if my dreams are induced by the drugs for the pain or just simply my spirit telling me "its time to wake up". I'm inclined to believe it's spirit, God, the divine wisdom that resides in me. As my friend Linda so amply put this morning, "i don't have to eat the whole elephant at one time." Which tends to be what happens when I've finally made up my mind. So, for the month of June will be trying an experiment, will be asking spirit, Jesus, God, the divine what's one thing to do today, and then do that one thing whatever it is. Will not be living as a refugee anymore...

Home At Last

I'm home, never thought I'd be so excited to be at home. My one day surgery turned out to be a three day stay, only two or three more surgeries before the problem in my throat is cured. Acid reflux while I'm sleeping is the cause, am so glad that it wasn't the other two variables Dr. Anderson suggested. Am feeling blessed, relieved, and a deep sense of gratitude. So, a couple of days of rest, then time to start on my five things to accomplish this month. While at the hospital I started Dr. Wayne Dyers book Inspirations and am loving it. Something so real and thought provoking about him. Well, am off to go read and get some rest.

The Beginning Of My 36th Year.

One day until surgery, yes, another surgery just as before. I'll be having at three more until whatever is in my throats gone. The strange thing, am at peace with it. Grateful, finally answers to my questions. Tomorrow I'll even have more answers. Some how the last six months brought on some changes to my attitude and even to my relationships. My thirty sixth year will be a miraculous adventure. That became evident on my birthday, which was Friday. The whole day, one thing after another happened, both good and bad and somehow everything meshed well. To where fear, anger, resentment, and most of all paralysis have vanished. Compulsion to sit around and wait for a certain friend to be a friend disappeared to where it does not matter at all. I've got plans, and also the gumption to get them done, only two days and then the gate to my journey will be open to me and the next chapter of my life can begin. Actually, its already began last Friday, the first day of my thirty sixth year. Where for the first time, contentment and love resided beside me with my family and friends, from close by, to far away. My sister in law Chris took me to the Rose Garden, the roses weren't all in bloom, but many flowers were. Where we walked a little ways and saw the outline of this magnificent city garden located in Portland Oregon. Plans for going back are in my agenda this summer. Then we drove around for eighty miles looking at awesome homes and scenic views and yep, cemetaries too. Then we went home and ate cheese, bread, and played a couple of games before going to my home at 4 AM. Many more great days will happen...

Freedom

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Song I Hate

I'm giving up on you
How could I ever call you mine
You're too pretty, too simple, too easy
You're just a waste of time, yeah

And I won't miss you when you're gone
You never move me anyway
I wanna wish you all the best and send you off
I hope somebody finds you entertaining

You're the song I hate
But I can't let go
You're the song I hate
But I can't let go

You know it gets so hard, so hard to keep moving on
Through all your petty little changes
Sometimes I wish I could just close my eyes
Wish you away

You're the song I hate
But I can't let go
You're the song I hate
But I can't let go

You're the song I (x3)
You're the song I hate

I tried so hard to change you to make you
Something I could enjoy
But you insist on just acting the plaything
You're just a toy, just a toy

You're the song I hate
But I can't let go
You're the song I hate
But I can't let go

You're the song I (x3)
You're the song that I hate

You're the song I hate
But I can't let go
You're the song I hate
But I can't let go

Yeah
The song that I hate
Uh!
You're the song I hate

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