A great journey in progress!

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Two New Pictures

This is my long time friend Amber and I.

This is my nephew Ric and I taken today.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

My Inner Photographer

Which famous photographer are you?

Ansel Adams: Known for large scale silver gelatin landscapes especially of Yosemite National Park

"Sometimes I do get to places just when God's ready to have somebody click the shutter."

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Sunday Serenity #3

This weeks Sunday Serenity I decided to write about some important people in my life. Since Thursday night, when I had the scare of my life and I received my diagnosis, I realized some things about myself. And I have made some huge decisions, I have to take better care of myself, and I have to accept offers of help and the love that some people have for me too. I am at peace with these wonderful people in my life, My sisters, Vickie, Joy, and Carri, my mom, Monte, and Amber, and anyone else whom I am forgetting.

Being Hit With Curve Balls

I don’t know how to start this blog, I just know that I have to write it. It Is something that is on my mind, because another disaster hit me hard on Thursday night. My leg swelled up, and when I laid down my breathing was constricted. My friend Monte called around 9 PM and I couldn’t catch my breath and I stood up, to turn on the light, and I was labored in my breathing. When I stood up I suddenly felt hot, I couldn’t catch my breath. I asked Monte to come and take me to the hospital, but he said no, that I should call for an ambulance instead. So, I hung up on him and I called for help, I gave my information to the phone operator and I waited for the ambulance, I called Monte back and I let him know what I did. He stayed on the phone with me until they arrived, which didn’t take too long. I made it to the Salmon Creek Legacy Hospital here in Vancouver Washington. It is a newly built hospital and the staff was excellent. I was admitted in and they ran all kinds of test, I felt like a pin cushion. My diagnosis was congestive heart failure, yes, at 33 years old I have congestive heart failure. I’m feeling emotionally upset, thinking to myself what more can go wrong, how much more can I take, will these curves balls stop hitting me in my head, chest, and face? I’m feeling battered, drained, upset, loved, and blessed all at once. Monte, whom I have had a tremulous relationship with for a bit, showed me how much he truly is a friend to me. He called my sister Vickie, the only phone number I could remember, I couldn’t remember my moms number, so he called my sister and left her a nice message about me. She of coursed called my mom, and so forth. Monte visited me in the hospital for a few hours after work. Sitting in the hospital bed, waiting for answers to questions, waiting to get things done, and then hearing what the outcome was, finally. I felt relieved when I left this evening, but sitting at home, thinking about the daunting task that I am going to have ahead of me, changing my diet again, (I was diagnosis with diabetes 4 years ago, and I have managed to not need meds, because I changed my diet.) Well, I believe that saying is true, “be like elastic, learn to stretch with whatever comes along.” I don’t know who said it, but I remember someone saying it to me when I was younger.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

33 & Still Kicking It!

This is a photo journal of my thirty third birthday, which was Monday. I got to spend time with some family and great friends. I had a great day. Thank you Monte for dinner, the drive up to Longview to see my mom, and of course the Tori Amos DVD collection. Thanks mom, it was great seeing you and visiting with you. It was awesome seeing you Carri and Levi too. It was awesome seeing Amber and her family. I'm blessed.

Friday, May 18, 2007

Hey Cinderella

I bought the Cinderella DVD and I watched it last night. It brought back so many memories for me. I remember I had the story book when I was a little girl. The fantasy of finding my prince charming, the evil step mother and the evil step sisters resonated within the little girl. I felt like a little girl again when I watched it, the romance, the beauty even faced with the viciousness of the people who were suppose to love and take of you, I could feel myself in that story and I also feel that way about Snow White too. I want that too, someday I will have that one.

My Evolving Life

I’ve been feeling darn good lately, a huge boulder has been lifted from my entire body. I feel like I can finally put Rick behind me and move on with my life, which is something I have been wanting and aching to do for the last 2 years. He has been dead for over three years now, and I do miss him, but I also realized some things about our relationship and what I truly want in a new one. I also realized that I need to do a lot of hard work to get where I am confident, secure, and happy with me. This week has been a whirlwind of activities that I have been dying to do for a long time. My awesome friend, Monte, has been my chauffer, I am currently seeking to purchase a car, and he has been gracious enough to take me and to also shop with me. I have never meet a man that loves to shop, and no he is not gay, I think that is only a figment of some ones imagination that only gay men love to shop. I got some things that I have been needing badly and I stocked up on them all, especially, my most feared loss of a certain item, toilet paper. Yes, I have a fear of not having any when I need it, it stems from my childhood where we often went without it and it is no fun wiping oneself with odd things. I apologize, I just gave too much information, didn’t I? LOL
Well, on to one of my favorite subjects, MUSIC, I love it. I splurged and I bought myself the new Tori Amos CD American Girl Posse. I absolutely love it, as usual, Tori showed us her passion and zest for music, and what she believes in. I absolutely love the song Big Wheel. I bought the deluxe version, I have the deluxe of The Beekeeper and Scarletts’ Walk too. Check her music out, if you haven’t heard it.


You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist.

People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you.

You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words.

Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

Sunday, May 06, 2007

Pink Rose

You Are a Light Pink Rose

You represent sweetness and grace.

Your vibe: Kind and gentle

Falling in love with you: is like falling in love with a best friend