A great journey in progress!

Thursday, March 29, 2007


Decisions have been hard for me to decide on for a long time. Watching Oprah with Sidney Poiter and listening to him talk, has given me some divine wisdom that I have been needing. His book, which I cannot wait to buy and read “The Measure Of A Man”, his spiritual biography, knowing who you are and standing up for you. Takes great courage and discipline that I wish could contain. I’m getting there, slowly and surely, I am getting there. I have been putting off making plans, increasing my future, believing in me, and using the negative doubts that bombard me continually as excuses to stay stagnate in what I am perceiving a hopeless situation. Is it that hopeless, really? Truthfully, taking action, improving yourself, doing the work that is necessary to achieve what I want to achieve is my ultimate goal. It is in the details, that I can find my true happiness and calling in this life of mine. I’ve been feeling hopeless for a long time, but is my situation that hopeless. I do have family and friends that want me to be myself. So, while chatting with my sister Joy, watching Oprah with Mr. Poiter, and then seeing my friends working towards their life strategies. I decided that I must do the same for me. I can’t sit here in the dark mess that I have been in anymore. I am busting myself out. There are things I want, and frankly, I deserve them. After all, I have done what I could and know for long enough. The old has to die and it has be killed off today.

1. I want to lose the 121 pound that I have left. I already lost 115 in 3 years, so I can lose the rest and keep it off.

2. I want to get back into reading and exploring authors. And having a well rounded library of my own.

3. I want to develop my music tastes and discover new musicians and artists. I want a good media collection of my own.

4. I want to go to art museums and discover what it is I can do that is artistic.

5. I want to cultivate the relationships I already have and make new ones.

6. I want to have my own patio garden or ground of my own.

7. I want an expansive wardrobe collection and discover the fabulous woman that I am.

8. I want to have a comfortable, inviting home for myself and guests.

9. I want no clutter or junk that I am using around me at all.

10. I want to go back to school, get my general AA and get a great paying job or start my own business of some sort.

11. I want to get my digital camera back and go on road trips and take fabulous pictures.

12. I want to develop my spiritual side of myself.
13. I want to have balance in my mind, body, and spirit. Taking care of all my needs.

14. I want to spend time with family and friends.

15. I want to have my own movie collection.

16. I want to have financial security and responsibility.

Well, that is about it. Come to think of it, some of it I am already on the road to doing.

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Thursday Thirteen #6

Thirteen Things about my favorite TV shows

1…. Oprah
2. Days Of Our Lives
3. The Medium
4. Crossing Jordan
5. Deal Or No Deal
6. One VS 100
7. Hero's
8. Criminal Intent
9. CSI
10. Postcards From Buster
11. Mash
12. Identity
13. Numbers
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What I Am Thankful For

My sister Vickie who is a strong woman, who is smart and fighter, like me. Who gives me good advice and someone I can talk to about things.

My mom who took me in when she didn’t have to and raised me as one of her children.

My sister Joy who I enjoy talking to about reading, writing, and goals that we both have in common.

My sister Carri who is a good mother to her son and who offers support when she can.

My brother Rob and his entire family for being there when I call or need them.

For Rick and Jessica who have been there, and who I’d like to have a better relationship with.

For Amber who is my oldest friend, who we’ve had the best laughs, the best traveling buddy, who keeps me inspired to be more creative, and believes I am, despite me not thinking so.

For Christina who is blunt like me, who gives me inspiration in the field that I want to be in and gives the best advice.

For Monte who keeps me laughing despite everything and who teaches me things about myself during the dark times.

For my apartment, though it is becoming run down with the new managers, it is still a good apartment.

For the pretty flowers and trees that I can see from my balcony and that I have planted myself.

For the freedoms I do have, being free from oppression of any sort, through religion, government, or even myself oppression.

For having my own mind, to think, believe, or learn whatever it is I want to.

For my computer, that keeps me informed, and in touch with loved ones.

For music, with the different types that are out there, different bands, lyrics, and insights.

For the books and authors that are out there, who express themselves eloquently with words and I can see the different perspectives that are out there.

For the freedom that I have now and didn’t realize that I had.

For being able to be my own manager of my own life and not have anyone to take from me, unless I let them.

I"m A Realist

You Are a Realist

You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass.

You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is...

But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on.

You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007


Southland a book written by Nina Revoyr is a mystery book that spans many generations. Jackie Ishida a law student goes to her aunts house after her grandfather passes away and discovers her grandfather for the first time. She finds out why he kept $38,000 dollars in the closet and an old will that leaves that money to Curtis. She soon discovers that Curtis and two other boys were murdered in her grandfathers store, which explains why her grandfather sold the store and moved their family. This book takes you on a journey through 1965 during the riots in LA and then in 1994 where Jackie is discovering her heritage, herself, and her family. I recommend this book to anyone who loves history and mystery.

Monday, March 26, 2007

Movies I Want To See

I needed something to keep my mind off of things for a few moments. I had one hell of a week this week. My elbow hurts, my good friend is mad at me, and another delay for something important in my life. Life happens I guess. Here is a list of 11 movies that I want to see.

1. Blood Diamond
2. Eragon
3. Crash
4. King Kong
5. Mr. and Mrs. Smith
6. Sahara
7. The Celestine Prophecy
8. The Brothers Grimm
9. Hidalgo
10. Cars
11. Borat

One Is The Loneliest Number

One Word...

Not as easy as you might think.

1. Where is your cell phone ? dead

2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend? dead

3. Your hair? brown

4. Work? over

5. Your father? heaven

6. Your favorite thing? music

7. Your dream last night? interesting

8. Your favorite drink? coke

9. Your dream car? Mustang

10. The room you're in? Bedroom

11. Your pet? none

12. Your fears? abandonment

13. What do you want to be in 10 years? happy

14. Where did you hang out last night? home

15. What you're not good at? anger

16. Eyebrow rings on the opposite sex? Nah

17. One of your wish list items? happiness

18. Where you grew up? Longview

19. The last thing you did? cried

20. What are you wearing? pajamas

21. what aren't you wearing? shoes

22. The website GoofyAuctions.com (filled with eBay spoofs)? what

23. Your computer? useful

24. Your life? obstacles

25. Your mood? swaying

26. Missing? dad

27. What are you thinking about right now? him

28. Your car? good

29. Your work? busy

30. Your summer? hot

31. Your relationship status? none

32. Your favorite color? red

Sunday, March 25, 2007


1. My 'ex' is:
is gone.

2. I am listening to:

3. Maybe I should:
start setting some plans and accomplishing them.

4. I love:
my family and friends

5. My best friends :
are my true friends.

6. I don't understand:

many, many things.

7. I lost my respect for:

8. I last ate:
rice and vegetables.

9. The meaning of my display name is:
its my name.

10. Love is:
unconditional and forgiving.

11. Somewhere:
someone is thinking about you.

12. I will always:

standy by you no matter how stupid your mistakes are.

13. Love seems to be:

14. I never ever want to lose:
my friends or family.

15. My mobile phone is:
over there.

16. When I woke up this morning:
I got a surprise phone call.

17. I get annoyed at:

18. Parties:
are fun.

19. My pet:
is dead.

20. Chocolate:
is so good, especially dark.

21. Today I:
I looked up stuff for a friend, read, did some organizing for my move, talked to friends.

22. I wish:
I could have my way.

23. I really want:
it to be my turn.


01. is your hair wet?

02. is your cell phone right by you?

03. do you miss someone?
a few people.

04. are you wearing chapstick?

05. are you tired?
not at the moment.

06. are you excited?

that my friend has a chance to make good money.

07. are you watching tv?

08. are you wearing pajamas?


01. recently done anything you regret?
yes, it was thursday, my friend says they forgive, but I still feel bad.

03. ever stuck gum under a desk?

04. ever kicked someone?

05. ever tripped over your own feet?
who do you think you're talking to? LOL


01. have you cursed?:

02. have you yelled at someone?

03. have you gotten mad at someone?

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Thursday 13 #5

Thirteen Musicians and Lyrics. YOUR NAME

1…. Solitude By Evanescence

How many times have I done this to myself
How long will it take before I see
When will this hole in my heart be mended
Who now is left alone but me

Ooh, Solitude,
Forever me and forever you
Ooh, Solitude,
Only you, only true

2. Little Earthquakes By Tori Amos
We danced in graveyards with vampires till dawn
We laughed in the faces of kings never afraid to burn
And I hate
And I hate
And I hate
And I hate disintegration
Watching us wither
Black winged roses that safely changed their color

Oh these little earthquakes
Here we go again
Oh these little earthquakes
Doesnt take much to rip us into pieces

I cant reach you
I cant reach you

Give me life, give me pain
Give me myself again

Oh these little earthquakes
Here we go again
Oh these little earthquakes
Doesnt take much to rip us into pieces
Doesnt take much to rip us into pieces

3. Love Alive by Heart
The sky was dark this morning
When I raised my head
I stood at the window -
Darkness was my bane

Suddenly a sunbeam arch
Thrilled me to my weary heart
It was the prettiest thing Id ever seen

I knew I had to keep my love
Keep my love alive
Keep my love - keep my love li

4. Faith, Courage, and Wisdom by India Arie
Inside my head there lives a dream that I want to see in the sun
Behind my eyes there lives a me that Ive been hiding for much too long
cause Ive been, too afraid to let it show
cause Im scared of the judgment that may follow
Always putting off my living for tomorrow
Its time to step out on faith, Ive gotta show my faith
Its been illusive for so long, but freedom is mine today
Ive gotta step out on faith, its time to show my faith
Procrastination had me down but look what I have found, I found

Strength, courage, and wisdom
And its been inside of me all along,
Strength, courage, and wisdom
Inside of me

5. I Hope You Dance by Lee Ann Womack
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that youll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....i hope you dance.

6. In The End by Linkin Park
It starts with [one]
One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind i designed this rhyme to explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, didn't even know
I wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everythin inside
And even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a
memory of a time when i [tried so hard]
Tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter
One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind i designed this rhyme to explain in due time
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so [far]
Things arent the way they were before
You wouldnt even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end
I kept everything inside
And even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a
memory of a time when I [tried so hard]
Tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesnt even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesnt even matter
I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
Theres only one thing you should know
I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
Theres only one thing you should know
I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesnt even matter
I had to fall to lost it all
But in the end it doesnt even matter

7. Imagine by John Lennon
Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

8. I Am An Illusion by Rob Thomas
Take this confusion
Runnin' round my head
Take back my unkind words
Lay that weight on me instead
I'm the place where everything turns sour
Where you gonna run to now

Wrong step
We got off track
We need someone to help us get back now
Worn thin
Awful state I was in
I believe I was losing me now I'm found
I am found

But I'm not real anymore
I am an illusion

I am the damage
I am the relief
Sometimes I'm people
I never hoped that I would be
If I take in whatever they turn out
What's that gonna make me now
Don't you understand

I'm not real anymore
I am an illusion

Wrong step
We got off track
We need someone to help us get back now
Worn thin
Awful state I was in
I believe they were fooling me
Now I'm down
I am down

But I'm not real anymore
I am an illusion

9. Dream On by Aerosmith

Everytime that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face gettin clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dust to dawn
Isnt that the way
Everybodys got their dues in life to pay

I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know its everybodys sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life is in books written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know its true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

Dream on, dream on
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on...

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter and sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

10. It's All Coming Back To Me Now by Celine Dion
There were nights when the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed
If I just listened to it
Right outside the window

There were days when the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust
And I just knew my eyes were
Drying up forever

I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I cant remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made

But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That its all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
Its so hard to believe but
Its all coming back to me
(its all coming back, its all coming back to me now)

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things Id never do again
But then theyd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any laws allow
Baby baby

If I kiss you like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But its all coming back to me
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But its all coming back to me
Its so hard to resist
And its all coming back to me
I can barely recall
But its all coming back to me now
But its all coming back

There were those empty threats and hollow lies
And whenever you tried to hurt me
I just hurt you even worse
And so much deeper

There were hours that just went on for days
When alone at last wed count up all the chances
That were lost to us forever

But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then

But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But its all coming back to me
If you touch me like this
And if I kiss you like that
It was gone with the wind
But its all coming back to me
(its all coming back, its all coming back to me now)

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things wed never do again
But then theyd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than all your laws allow
Baby, baby, baby

When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But its all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But its all coming back to me now

If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And its all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
We see just what we want to see
Al coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall but its all coming back to me now

11. Landslide by Stevie Nicks
I took my love and I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life

Well, Ive been afraid of changing cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
Im getting older too

Well, Ive been afraid of changing cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
Im getting older, too
Well Im getting older too

So, take this love and take it down
Year and if you climb a mountain and ya turn around
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well the landslide brought me down
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well maybe
Well maybe
Well maybe the landslide will bring you down

12. Precious Time by Pat Benetar

I dont want to argue about who is the victim
Cause maybe we both got burned
I dont want to talk about who is the traitor
Cause both of our loyalties turned
I dont want to fight about who is the liar
Cause theres too many ways to lie
I dont want to hear about who is the winner
Cause we both know its a tie
Cut it out, drop it, count me out - baby stop it
Life is too short, so why waste precious time
Life is too short, so why waste precious time

You were on a liquid diet, you were sure you had to try it
And you lost all your pounds
The doctors on vacation, so you took the medication
And wound up in lost and found
So we took a trip to paris
Cause you swore that it would scare us out of our swift decline
All that I remember `bout those days in that september
Is the merci and the wine

Cut it out, drop it, count me out - baby stop it
Life is too short, so why waste precious time
Life is too short, so why waste
Precious time, precious time, precious time
Oh, precious time
Life is too short, so why waste precious time

You talk on the telephone, long distance to new york or rome
Some would say you got it made
Your home is like a fortress, no one comes in but the florist
The gardner, and the maid
You call me on the telephone, you say you feel so alone
Too tired to get dressed and get out
First youre happy, then youre sad
Somehow you always hang up mad
Excuse me if I shout

Cut it out, drop it, count me out - baby stop it
Life is too short, so why waste precious time
Life is too short, so why waste precious time
Life is too short, so why waste precious time
Precious time, precious time, oh precious time
Life is too short, so why waste precious time

13. Enough Crying by Mary J. Blige

Cause Um
The Sex Was Good
You Had My Mind
And I
I Let You
Come Back
Every Time
You Would
And Cross
The Line
And You
Knew That I
Would Be
The Type
To Always
Wait So Patiently
You Was Comin'
Home To Me
Damn, I Never Heard
The Keys
Felt Ya Taps
Sayin' Are
You Sleep

Rewind That!

Cause Um
The Sex Was Good
You Had My Mind
And I
I Let You
Come Back
Every Time
You Would
And Cross
The Line
And You
Knew That I
Would Be
The Type
To Always
Wait So Patiently
You Was Comin'
Home To Me
Damn, I Never Heard
The Keys
Felt Ya Taps
Sayin' Are
You Sleep

Don't Wanna
Play House
No More
So Dumb
To Think
You Gon'
Marry Me
I Got To Be Out
My Mind
To Think I
Need Someone
To Carry Me
I've Done Enough
Cryin', Cryin', Cryin'
(cryin', Cryin', Cryin')
It's Time To Say
Bye, Bye, Bye
It's Time I
Do Something
For Me

[2nd Verse:]
It's Time
I Choose
My Clothes
Choose My Friends
Be With My Family
They Been Asking
Where You Been?
We Ain't Seen
You In Weeks
Been Chasin'
This Fool Around
Thinkin' He Gon'
Hold Me Down
I Would
Follow His Lead
Thinkin' I Would
Be The One
He Keep Around
What I Needed
Not Ya Finance
And All That
I Needed
Real Commitment
I Really Couldn't See It
Not The Real Man
You Said You Would Be
In This Relationship
So Many Men
Think All
A Girl Needs
Is To Be Sold
A Dream
But I Won't
Fall For It

[repeat Chorus 1x]

Don't Wanna
Play House No More
You Treat Me Wrong
Tired Of You
Playin' Me
I Been Lookin'
At The Front Door
This Ain't Yours
So Let Me Do Me
Don't Wanna
Play House No More
No More
Tired Of You
Playin' Me
I've Done Enough
Cryin', Cryin', Cryin'
It's Time
I Do
Something For Me

[brook's Rap:]
You Turned Ya Back
And Back
I Came Runnin'
But The Simple
Fact Is
That You
Ain't Want Me
I Done Enough
Lyin' And Cryin'
To Myself
Nothin' Left
To Do But Move
What Else
Can I Do But Leave?
I Believed That You Would Marry Me
But Now I Gotta Breeze
I Be's With Lt
When You Come
To Ya Senses
But Then
It's Too Late
That's Always
How It Be
Catch Me
With The B's
On The Wheels
Giuseppe On The Heels
Shoulda Marc Jacob
Fe Fe Bag Me
When You Had Me
Next Dude
Will Gladly
Pick Up
Where You Left Off
Ice Me
Wife Me
You Ain't Gon'
Have Me

Cryin', Cryin', Cryin'
(cryin', Cryin', Cryin')
It's Time To Say
Bye, Bye, Bye
It's Time I
Do Something
For Me

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List three things about yourself that people might not know:
1. That I do have opinions.
2. Life is changing for the better.
3. I've made mistakes, but I'm trying to learn from them.

List three places that you'd like to go:
1. Africa
2. Italy.
3. New York

List three things that make you happy:
1. Music.
2. Good books
3. Family and Friends

List three people you admire or look up to:
1. Anyone who has been successful and did it there way.
2. Amy Lee.
3. Friends.

List three flavours or tastes you enjoy:
1. Cheese
2. Grape
3. Bread

List three favorite books:
1. Books written by Willa Cather
2. Books written by Virginia Woolfe
3. Books written by Maya Angelou

List three favorite sounds:
1. Music.
2. Rain.
3. laughter

List three feelings that you enjoy:
1. Happiness.
2. Calm.
3. Love.

List three things you tend to avoid in life:
1. Drama.
2. Talking about my past.
3. Perverts.

List three good movies:
1. Superman Returns.
2. The Wizard Of Oz
3. any movie that Denziel Washington Does or Meryl Streep.

List three things you tend to put off:
1. Housework.
2. Telling people how I feel.
3. Exercise.

List three things about your personality:
1. Smart.
2. Humorous.
3. Skeptical.

List three things that inspire you:
1. Beauty in nature and people I am around.
3. Good Books.

List three things you should get rid of:
1. Clutter from my past.
2. Clutter from my body.
3. Clutter from my emotions.

List three things [people] you miss:
1. My dad.
2. My big Sister Vickie.
3. My Big Sister Joy.

List three accomplishments:
1. Losing 45 pounds.
2. Becoming myself daily.
3. Moving and starting life over.

List three goals:
1. Moving to a safer apartment.
2. Graduating and starting my business.
3. Be happy.

Three nicknames.
1. Jam
2. Mcwalker
3. Jamers

Three things you are scared of.
1. Snakes.
2. People.
3. Being abandoned.

Three things you can touch with your left hand.
1. Keyboard.
2. Water bottle.
3. My blanket.

Three things you can touch with your right hand.
1. Mouse.
2. Keyboard.
3. My leg.

Three subjects in school that you like[d]
1. History.
2. Art.
3. English.

Three sports you like to watch.
1. Baseball.
2. Gymnastics.
3. Ice skating.

Three sports you like to play.
1. Baseball.
2. Valley Ball.
3. Running.

Three kinds of candy you like.
1. Dark chocloate.
2. Dots.
3. Nerds.

Saturday, March 17, 2007


How do you organize your books? By genre, by last name, by title, by publication date?
I'm not that organize, I just do it by size generally.

Do you have a shelf reserved for your favorite books and/or authors?
No, I only buy books that I enjoy anyway, or that look interesting. I usually have two or three by my bed, so I can read at night or when I feel like curling up with a good book.

What is the first title and author on your bookshelf?
The Davinci Code By Dan Brown

What is the last title and author on your bookshelf?
Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden

What genre dominates your collection?
Self Help

Which author is the most represented? (You own the most number of books by . . . )

You own all of the books written by . . .
I don't own all the books written by any author, but I would like to own all the books by Virginia Woolfe and Willa Cather.

You own the entire series of . . .

I don't own any series of books either.

Wall Hitting Not For Me

Have you ever punched a wall?

What is something you wanna say to the person who posted this before you?
You are a good momma

Do you have a landscaped yard?
My apartment does, though lately, it has gone down hill.

Do you meditate?
Yes, I try to.

Do you always have to be right?
Nope, I am wrong often.

Are you ticklish?

When was the last time you drank alochol?
Last night, Monte gave me an apple beer, it was good. I only had one.

Who did you hangout with yesterday?
I saw Monte for a couple of hours.

Have you danced by the light of the moon?

Do you think of 50 as old?
Nope, considering that my brother and two sisters are close to 50 and they don't seem old to me. And 50 isn't that far ahead for me.

Do you like almonds or cashews the best?

What does your last text message say?
You are awesome, Mcwalker do.

Have you gone on many blind dates?

Do you tend to go with the flow, or wade upstream all by yourself?
both, depending on the situation.

When a stranger drops something, do you attempt to pick it up?
I try to

Has someone done something extra nice for you today?
Yep, my sister talking to me about my upcoming move, and some plans that I need to make for my future.

Are you a private person?
Oh yes, I get accused of hiding my true emotions and thoughts often.

Name one thing you would never eat.
slugs, ants, hominy.

Did you have a crush on any of your teachers?
Ys, I did, mr bloom the science teacher.

Do you have any friends you're embarassed to be seen with?
no, but I have a couple who have been of me, because of the way I dressed at that time.

Do you get excited easily?

Do you think Winnie the Pooh is a stupid name?

Do you allow animals on your furniture?

What do you need right now?
chocolate, an oprah magazine, hot bath, a hug, and cheaper rent.

Would you rather have mint or fruit flavored gum?

Do you use petroleum jelly?

Do you have road rage?

Who is more passive, your mother or father?
none of them, they both have their moments, depending ont he subject.

Do you think PDA's are acceptable?
not really

Do you ever feel brain dead?

Have you ever eaten grass?
not on purpose

When you hear the song "Puff the Magic Dragon" what do you think of?
The old movie from the 50's and 60's where that song came from.

Do you ever eat food right out of cans and jars instead of using plates or bowls?

Are you desperate for attention?

I can be.

Do you like someone right now?
I lke lots of people

What are your plans for tonight?
computer time, hot bath, music, booking reading, list making, and check out my other blog.


Your Worry Factor is 33%

You worry a little, but you usually don't go overboard.

You know it's good to recognize your fears, as long as you let go of them.

So whenever you start to worry too much, just take a deep breath and relax.

You're not the worrying kind - and there's no reason to start.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Inner Gardening

Diane Dreher takes a look at cultivating your soul, along with the dirt in her book “Inner Gardening”. She intermingles the different seasons, along side the seasons of our lives with thought provoking candor and deeply thought out questions for you. It gives you a challenge to analyze yourself along with the dirt you are sinking your hands into. I don’t have a plot of my own to put my garden tools into and produce my dream garden, I can still appreciate her passion, she exclaims with joy over her found treasures in her garden. She talks about her trials, tribulations, and appreciation for everything living in her garden, even the slugs she despises. She inspired me to make my own patio garden, the one I have been mulling and dreaming about since I moved here to Vancouver over a year ago. I got my list of plants that I want to plant, and I have it laid out in my mind what I want it to look like. I am finding the sacred in what I do have and what I can do with what I have. Dreher pushes through her resistance with grace, dignity, and honesty and that is the motto of her book. Even if you don’t like getting your hands dirty in soil or care about how things grow and in what season, you will surely learn about your own growth with this book.

Quotes For Today

These are some of the quotes that I have encountered in my reading and I have found some keen knowledge in them. They speak to me.

“There are no rules here. We’re just trying to accomplish something” Thomas Edison

“Truth is often uncomfortable. It is only comforting to those who do not wish to ignore it. Then, truth becomes not only comforting, but inspiring.” Neale David Walsch

“The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off” Werner Erhard

“You must speak straight so that your words go as sunlight into our hearts.” Cochise, Chiricahua Chief

“Most of us are so busy running around creating the soap opera and drama we call our lives that we don’t hear anything.” Louise Hay

“Knowledge speaks but wisdom listens” Jimi Hendrix

“If you are going through hell, keep going” Winston Churchill

“If you don’t have must going wrong in your life, then you don’t have much going on in your life” Larry Winget

“Knowledge is not power. It is the implementation of knowledge that is power.” Larry Winget

“All great truth begins as blasphemy.” George Bernard Shaw

“”In order to make positives about your life, you first have to get negative about your life.” Larry Winget

“Stress comes from knowing what is right and doing what is wrong.” Larry Winget

Wednesday, March 14, 2007


You Are Fairly Skeptical

You're not the type of person who will fall for anything...

But you do keep your mind open to all sorts of possibilities.

You figure that anything could be true. After all, the world is a strange place.

However, you're going to need some convincing before you can believe in aliens or reincarnation!

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

The Truth Will Set Me Free

What do you do when someone that doesn’t know you slanders you, saying malicious lies about your family and you, just for a few dollars. That is what I am going through right now, my mind is reeling, I can’t sleep tonight. I have an appointment with my lawyer, still the anxious feelings stay. I am angry, I am resentful, mostly, I am feeling extremely overwhelmed by these people who are his family, but weren’t apart of his life, at least his later years. I loved, took care, supported, waited hand and foot for this man for 10 years of my life. He and I had some great times and sometimes I do miss him. The last three years have been obstacles of learning new things and discovering things about myself. I have never been so slandered, ripped apart by anyone in my entire life, especially, by people who do not know me. One in particular person I never met in my life, but claims we have. Greed brings out monsters in people, I am learning that. I haven’t changed, I was willing to share, still am. Receiving those papers, with those words of lies and statements that were so ludicrous that it made me laugh hard, like I was 17 in 1996 and some other idiotic things, but it is that paper with those written words that has brought me to this frame of mind. I am worth fighting for. I am not going to lay down and let someone lie, beat me up verbally, and insult the people that I love and call them liars. I am not going to at the same time reduce myself to the verbal abuse that they are slapping me in the face with. I will be honest, direct, to the point, and blunt as hell towards these two individuals. The truth hurts worse than lies. And I guarantee that this time, no amount, of verbal abuse these women lay on me is going to make me crawl at their feet and retreat, like I did before, when the one accosted me at the funeral home. I’m not grieving, upset, and in any mood to put up with her bullshit. I’m done. I’m not going to let her destroy me, or the person that you claim to love, just so you can have some money. That is not right. I feel sorry for, and deep in my heart, I hope that the two of them find happiness and love in their lives. They are not happy, and it is evident, because of the things they are saying and doing. The truth will set me free.

Monday, March 12, 2007

top 100 songs from 2001 to 2005. Bold the ones you like now. Italicize the ones you liked the year they were in the top 100. Underline the ones you still sort of like now.


1. Lady Marmalade Christina Aguilera, Lil' Kim, Mya & Pink
2. Fallin', Alicia Keys
3. I'm Real, Jennifer Lopez
4. Family Affair, Mary J. Blige
5. Butterfly, Crazy Town
6. Thank You, Dido
7. Don't Tell Me, Madonna
8. He Loves U Not, Dream
9. Gone, 'N Sync
10. Love Don't Cost A Thing, Jennifer Lopez
11. Hero, Enrique Iglesias
12. Hanging By A Moment, Lifehouse
13. Drops Of Jupiter, Train
14. Jaded, Aerosmith
15. U Remind Me, Usher
16. Hit 'Em Up Style, Blu Cantrell
17. Survivor, Destiny's Child
18. It Wasn't Me. Shaggy featuring Ricardo "Rikrok" Ducent
19. All For You, Janet Jackson
20. Angel, Shaggy featuring Rayvon
21. Turn Off The Light, Nelly Furtado
22. All Or Nothing, O-Town <3
23. How You Remind Me, Nickelback
24. Someone To Call My Lover, Janet Jackson
25. Fill Me In, Craig David
26. It's Been Awhile, Staind
27. I'm Like A Bird, Nelly Furtado
28. Bootylicious, Destiny's Child
29. Again, Lenny Kravitz
30. Let Me Blow Ya Mind, Eve featuring Gwen Stefani
31. Everywhere, Michelle Branch
32. Stutter, Joe featuring Mystikal
33. Irresistable , Jessica Simpson
34. I Hope You Dance, Lee Ann Womack
35. Nobody Wants To Be Lonely, Ricky Martin & Christina Aguilera
36. Here's To The Night, Eve 6
37. Beautiful Day, U2
38. Emotion, Destiny's Child
39. Superman (It's Not Easy), Five For Fighting
40. Southside, Moby with Gwen Stefani
41. The Space Between, Dave Matthews Band
42. Play, Jennifer Lopez
43. When It's Over, Sugar Ray
44. Drive, Incubus
45. More Than That, Backstreet Boys
46. What Would You, Do City High
47. Be Like That, 3 Doors Down
48. I Wanna Be Bad ,Willa Ford
49. Peaches & Cream , 112
50. Ride Wit Me, Nelly
51. Only Time, Enya
52. Where The Party At, Jagged Edge with Nelly
53. Standing Still, Jewel
54. Pop, 'N Sync
55. This Is Me , Dream
56. Never Had A Dream Come True, S Club 7
57. Crazy, K-Ci & JoJo
58. You Make Me Sick, Pink
59. What It Feels Like For A Girl, Madonna
60. E.I., Nelly
61. Dig In, Lenny Kravitz
62. Get Ur Freak On, Missy Elliott
3. Breathless, The Corrs
64. Every Other Time, LFO
65. Yellow, Coldplay
66. Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning), Vertical Horizon
67. One Minute Man, Missy Elliott
68. I Do, Toya
69. Fly Away From Here, Aerosmith
70. I'm A Slave 4 U, Britney Spears
71. Smooth Criminal, Alien Ant Farm
72. Still On Your Side, BBMak
73. No More (Baby I'ma Do Right), 3LW
74. My Everything, 98 Degrees
75. Ms. Jackson, Outkast
76. Start The Commotion, The Wiseguys
77. Free, Mya
78. Baby, Come On Over (This Is Our Night), Samantha Mumba
79. Hemmorhage (In My Hands), Fuel
80. Drowning, Backstreet Boys
81. Around The World (La La La…), ATC
82. Thank You For Loving Me, Bon Jovi
83. AM To PM, Christina Milian
84. Izzo (H.O.V.A.), Jay-Z
85. Flavor Of The Week, American Hi-Fi
86. What's Going On, All Star Tribute
87. Stronger, Britney Spears
88. One More Time, Daft Punk
89. I'm A Believer, Smash Mouth
90. We Fit Together, O-Town
91. Differences, Ginuwine
92. Follow Me, Uncle Kracker
93. There You'll Be, Faith Hill
94. So In Love With Two, Mikaila
95. In My Pocket, Mandy Moore
96. Mad Season, Matchbox 20
97. Bad Day,, Fuel
98. What's Your Fantasy, Ludacris
99. Liquid Dreams, O-Town
100. Babylon, David Gray


1. A Thousand Miles, Vanessa Carlton
2. Get The Party Started, Pink
3. Complicated, Avril Lavigne
4. Dilemma, Nelly featuring Kelly Rowland
5. In The End, Linkin Park
6. Ain't It Funny, Jennifer Lopez
7. U Got It, Bad Usher
8. All You Wanted, Michelle Branch
9. Don't Let Me Get Me, Pink
10. Hot In Herre, Nelly
11. Hey Baby, No Doubt
12. Can't Get You Out Of My Head, Kylie Minogue
13. Lose Yourself, Eminem
14. The Middle, Jimmy Eat World
15. The Game Of Love, Santana featuring Michelle Branch
16. U Don't Have To Call, Usher
17. Like I Love You, Justin Timberlake
18. Girlfriend, 'N Sync
19. Wherever You Will Go, The Calling
20. My Sacrifice, Creed
21. Ordinary Day, Vanessa Carlton
22. Underneath It All, No Doubt
23. Jenny From The Block, Jennifer Lopez
24. Just Like A Pill, Pink
25. Blurry, Puddle Of Mudd
26. Gangsta Lovin', Eve featuring Alicia Keys
27. Hero, Chad Kroeger featuring Josey Scott
28. Days Go By, Dirty Vegas
29. Foolish, Ashanti
30. Escape, Enrique Iglesias
31. Without Me, Eminem
32. No Such Thing, John Mayer
33. Can't Fight The Moonlight, LeAnn Rimes
34. Hella Good, No Doubt
35. Heaven, DJ Sammy & Yanou
36. Whenever, Wherever, Shakira

37. Family Portrait, Pink
38. One Last Breath, Creed
39. 7 Days, Craig David
40. Hands Clean, Alanis Morissette
41. Die Another Day, Madonna
42. Sk8er Boi, Avril Lavigne
43. A Woman's Worth, Alicia Keys
44. Love At First Sight, Kylie Minogue
45. Underneath Your Clothes, Shakira
46. I Need A Girl (Part One), P. Diddy featuring Usher & Loon
47. Full Moon, Brandy
48. Wasting My Time, Default
49. Soak Up The Sun, Sheryl Crow
50. Gotta Get Thru This, Daniel Bedingfield
51. Always On Time, Ja Rule featuring Ashanti
52. #1, Nelly
53. Livin' It Up, Ja Rule featuring Case
54. Goodbye To You, Michelle Branch
55. If I Could Go, Angie Martinez
56. Stole, Kelly Rowland
57. Just A Friend 2002, Mario
58. Roll Out (My Business), Ludacris
59. I'm Gonna Be Alright, Jennifer Lopez featuring Nas
60. Happy, Ashanti
61. No More Drama, Mary J. Blige
62. Somewhere Out There, Our Lady Peace
63. Video, India.Arie
64. Walking Away, Craig David
65. A Moment Like This, Kelly Clarkson
66. Rainy Dayz, Mary J. Blige featuring Ja Rule
67. What About Us?, Brandy
68. I Need A Girl (Part Two), P. Diddy & Ginuwine featuring Loon, Mario Winans & Tammy Rugger
69. (This Is) A Song For The Lonely, Cher
70. What's Luv?, Fat Joe featuring Ashanti
71. A New Day Has Come, Celine Dion
72. The Whole World, Outkast
73. Hey Ma, Cam'ron
74. More Than A Woman, Aaliyah
75.. Disease, Matchbox 20
76 Oops (Oh My), Tweet
77. Here Is Gone, Goo Goo Dolls
78. Caramel, City High featuring Eve
79. Objection (Tango), Shakira
80. Out Of My Heart, BBMak
81. Girl Talk, TLC
82. Cleanin' Out My Closet, Eminem
83. Too Bad, Nickelback
84. In A Little While, Uncle Kracker
85. For All Time, Soluna
86. Wrong Impression, Natalie Imbruglia
87. Everyday, Dave Matthews Band
88. Starry Eyed Surprise,, Paul Oakenfold
89.. Where Are You Going, Dave Matthews Band
90 Insatiable, Darrin Hayes
91. Rapture (Tastes So Sweet), iio
92. Son Of A Gun, Janet Jackson
93. The World's Greatest, R. Kelly
94. Something More, Train
95. Don't Say Goodbye, Paulina Rubio
96. Walk With Me, Seven & The Sun
97. I Do (Wanna Get Close To You), 3LW
98. Steve McQueen, Sheryl Crow
99. I'm Not A Girl, Not Yet A Woman, Britney Spears
100. Running Away, Hoobastank


1. Crazy In Love, Beyoncé Knowles featuring Jay-Z
2. Hey Ya!, Outkast
3. Here Without You, 3 Doors Down
4. Baby Boy, Beyoncé Knowles featuring Sean Paul
5. Miss Independent, Kelly Clarkson
6. Beautiful, Christina Aguilera
7. Rock Your Body, Justin Timberlake
8. Where Is The Love?, Black Eyed Peas featuring Justin Timberlake
9. When I'm Gone, 3 Doors Down
10. All I Have, Jennifer Lopez featuring LL Cool J
11. Shake Ya Tailfeather, Nelly, P. Diddy & Murphy Lee
12. Unwell, Matchbox
13. Picture, Kid Rock & Sheryl Crow
14. In Da Club, 50 Cent
15 I'm With You, Avril Lavigne
16. Bring Me To Life, Evanescence
17. Cry Me A River, Justin Timberlake
18. Can't Hold Us Down, Christina Aguilera featuring Lil' Kim
19. Harder To Breathe, Maroon 5
20. Why Don't You & I, Santana featuring Alex Band
21. Someday, Nickelback
22. Suga Suga Baby, Bush featuring Frankie J
23. Your Body Is A Wonderland, John Mayer
24. Are You Happy Now?, Michelle Branch
25. Landslide, Dixie Chicks
26. The Remedy (I Won't Worry), Jason Mraz
27. (There's Gotta Be) More To Life, Stacie Orrico
28. I Know What You Want, Busta Rhymes & Mariah Carey featuring The Flipmode Squad
29. It's My Life, No Doubt
30. Clocks, Coldplay
31. Stacy's Mom,Fountains Of Wayne
32. All The Things She Said, t.A.T.u.
33. Bump Bump Bump, B2K & P. Diddy
34. Get Busy, Sean Paul
35. Rock Wit U (Awww Baby), Ashanti
36. If You're Not The One, Daniel Bedingfield
37. Headstrong, Trapt
38. Bright Lights, Matchbox 20
39. Fighter, Christina Aguilera
40. Perfect, Simple Plan
41. '03 Bonnie & Clyde, Jay-Z featuring Beyoncé Knowles
42. Mesmerize, Ja Rule featuring Ashanti
43. Intuition, Jewel
44. Ignition, R. Kelly
45. Drift Away, Uncle Kracker featuring Dobie Gray
46. White Flag, Dido
47. Work It, Missy Elliott
48. Miss You, Aaliyah
49. Invisible, Clay Aiken
50. Senorita, Justin Timberlake
51. Addicted, Simple Plan
52. 21 Questions, 50 Cent featuring Nate Dogg
53. My Love Is Like…, Wo Mya
54. Don't Mess With My Man, Nivea
55. Angel, Amanda Perez
56. She Hates Me, Puddle Of Mudd
57. I Want You, Thalia featuring Fat Joe
58. Blowin' Me Up (With Her Love), JC Chasez
59. Girls & Boys, Good Charlotte
60. So Far Away, Staind
61. Swing, Swing, All-American Rejects
62. Magic Stick, Lil' Kim featuring 50 Cent
63. Don't Wanna Try, Frankie
64. Sing For The Moment, Eminem
65. Hell Yeah, Ginuwine
66. Through The Rain, Mariah Carey
67. Breathe, Michelle Branch
68. Right Thurr, Chingy
69. Lifestyles Of The Rich & Famous, Good Charlotte
70. Calling All Angels, Train
71. Gossip Folks, Missy Elliott featuring Ludacris
72. P.I.M.P., 50 Cent
73. Air Force Ones, Nelly
74. I'm Glad, Jennifer Lopez
75. Low, Kelly Clarkson
76. I Drove All Night, Celine Dion
77. Into You, Fabolous featuring Tamia
78. Stuck, Stacie Orrico
79. So Yesterday, Hilary Duff
80. No Letting Go, Wayne Wonder
81. Stand Up, Ludacris featuring Shawnna
82. Big Yellow Taxi, Counting Crows featuring Vanessa Carlton
83. Losing Grip, Avril Lavigne
84. Never Leave You, Lumidee
85. Why Can't I, Liz Phair
86. The Boys Of Summer, The Ataris
87. Bigger Than My Body, John Mayer
88. Get Low Lil', Jon & The Eastside Boyz
89. Running, No Doubt
90. Spin, Lifehouse
91.. Something, Lasgo
92 Superman, Eminem
93. Pretty Baby, Vanessa Carlton
94. Come Into My World, Kylie Minogue
95. Me Against The Music, Britney Spears featuring Madonna
96. The Anthem, Good Charlotte
97. Deliverance, Bubba Sparxxx
98. Misunderstood, Bon Jovi
99. I'd Do Anything, Simple Plan
100. I Can Only Imagine, MercyMe


1. The Reason, Hoobastank
2. This Love, Maroon 5
3. Yeah, Usher featuring Ludacris & Lil' Jon
4. Leave (Get Out), JoJo
5. She Will Be Loved, Maroon 5
6. Pieces Of Me, Ashlee Simpson
7. With You, Jessica Simpson
8. The Way You Move, Outkast
9. My Immortal, Evanescence
10. My Happy Ending, Avril Lavigne
11. My Boo, Usher & Alicia Key
12. Burn, Usher
13. Toxic, Britney Spears
14. If I Ain't Got You, Alicia Keys
15. Breakaway, Kelly Clarkson
16. Dare You To Move, Switchfoot
17. Dip It Low, Christina Milian
18. Over And Over, Nelly featuring Tim McGraw
19. Hey Mama, Black Eyed Peas
20. Meant To Live, Switchfoot
21. Lose My Breath, Destiny's Child
22. I Don't Want To Be, Gavin DeGraw
23. Naughty Girl, Beyoncé Knowles
24. Let's Get It Started, Black Eyed Peas
25. On The Way Down, Ryan Cabrera
26. I Don't Want You Back, Eamon
27. Falls On Me, Fuel
28. Roses, Outkast
29. One Thing, Finger Eleven
30. Move Ya Body, Nina Sky
31. I Don't Wanna Know, Mario Winans featuring Enya & P. Diddy
32. Broken, Seether featuring Amy Lee
33. Everytime, Britney Spears
34. The First Cut Is The Deepest, Sheryl Crow
35. Scandalous, Mis-Teeq
36. The Voice Within, Christina Aguilera
37. Take My Breath Away, Jessica Simpson
38. Turn Me On, Kevin Lyttle
39. Heaven, Los Lonely Boys
40. 1985, Bowling For Soup
41. Ocean Avenue, Yellowcard
42. Don't Tell Me, Avril Lavigne
43. Confessions Part 2, Usher
44. Milkshake, Kelis
45. Eighth World Wonder, Kimberly Locke
46. Me, Myself And I, Beyoncé Knowles
47. Sunshine, Lil Flip
48. Baby It's You, JoJo
49. Numb, Linkin Park
50. Goodies, Ciara
51. Welcome To My Life, Simple Plan
52. Drop It Like It's Hot, Snoop Dogg
53. Come Clean, Hilary Duff
54. My Band, D12 featuring Eminem
55. One Call Away, Chingy
56. Hold On, Good Charlotte
57. Freek-A-Leek, Petey Pablo
58. Daughters, John Mayer
59. Tipsy, J-Kwon
60. Slow Jamz, Twista featuring Kanye West & Jamie Foxx
61. Are You Gonna Be My Girl, Jet
62. Just Lose It, Eminem
63. The Trouble With Love Is, Kelly Clarkson
64. Hotel, Cassidy featuring R. Kelly
65. I Like That, Houston
66. Bounce, Sarah Connor
67. Lady, Lenny Kravitz
68. Slow Motion, Juvenile
69. I Miss You, Blink-182
70. Feelin' Way Too Damn Good, Nickelback
71. My Place, Nelly
72. Dirt Off Your Shoulder, Jay-Z
73. Vertigo, U2
74. You Don't Know My Name, Alicia Keys
75. Gigolo, Nick Cannon
76. White Houses, Vanessa Carlton
77. Let's Go, Trick Daddy
78. You And I Both, Jason Mraz
79. Overnight Celebrity, Twista
80. (I Hate) Everything About You, Three Days Grace
81. Only One, Yellowcard
82. Change Clothes, Jay-Z
83. 100 Years, Five For Fighting
84. Echo, Trapt
85. I'm Still In Love With You, Sean Paul
86. Breaking The Habit, Linkin Park
87. Shadow, Ashlee Simpson
88. What You Waiting For?, Gwen Stefani
89. How Come, D12
90. Slow, Kylie Minogue
91. Some Girls (Dance With Women), JC Chasez
92. Vindicated, Dashboard Confessional
93. God Is A DJ, Pink
94. Lean Back, Terror Squad
95. Accidentally In Love, Counting Crows
96. Just A Little While, Janet Jackson
97. Away From The Sun, 3 Doors Down
98. Angels, Jessica Simpson
99. Locked Up, Akon
100. Not Today, Mary J. Blige featuring Eve


1. We Belong Together Mariah Carey
2. Since U Been Gone Kelly Clarkson
3. Because Of You Kelly Clarkson
4. Behind These Hazel Eyes Kelly Clarkson
5. You And Me Lifehouse
6. Don't Cha Pussycat Dolls featuring Busta Rhymes
7. Boulevard Of Broken Dreams Green Day
8. Pon De Replay Rihanna
9. Karma Alicia Keys
10. Run It Chris Brown
11. Let Me Love You Mario
12. Hollaback Girl Gwen Stefani
13. Beverly Hills Weezer
14. Don't Phunk With My Heart Black Eyed Peas
15. Shake It Off Mariah Carey
16. Don't Forget About Us Mariah Carey
17. 1, 2 Step Ciara featuring Missy Elliott
18. Photograph Nickelback
19. Caught Up Usher
20. Gold Digger Kanye West
21. Let Me Go 3 Doors Down
22. Obsession (No Es Amor) Frankie J featuring Baby Bash
23. Switch Will Smith
24. Listen To Your Heart D.H.T.
25. My Humps Black Eyed Peas
26. Rich Girl Gwen Stefani featuring Eve
27. Lose Control Missy Elliott
28. Lonely No More Rob Thomas
29. Scars Papa Roach
30. Beautiful Soul Jesse McCartney
31. Feel Good Inc. Gorillaz
32. Baby I'm Back Baby Bash
33. Don't Lie Black Eyed Peas
34. Soldier Destiny's Child
35. These Words Natasha Bedingfield
36. Get It Poppin' Fat Joe featuring Nelly
37. Belly Dancer (Bananza) Akon
38. Holiday Green Day
39. Wake Me Up When September Ends Green Day
40. Oh Ciara featuring Ludacris
41. Mr. Brightside, The Killers
42. Chariot, Gavin DeGraw
43. Sugar, We're Goin' Down, Fall Out Boy
44. Luxurious, Gwen Stefani
45. Nobody's Home, Avril Lavigne
46. Incomplete, Backstreet Boys
47. True, Ryan Cabrera
48. Collide, Howie Day
49. Sunday Morning, Maroon 5
50. Mockingbird, Eminem
51. Cool, Gwen Stefani
52. Disco Inferno, 50 Cent
53. How To Deal, Frankie J
54. Lovers & Friends, Lil Jon featuring Usher & Ludacris
55. We Be Burnin', Sean Paul
56. Untitled (How Can This HappenTo Me?), Simple Plan
57. Like You, Bow Wow featuring Ciara
58. Your Body, Pretty Ricky
59. Lonely, Akon
60. Sugar (Gimme Some), Trick Daddy
61. Candy Shop, 50 Cent
62. Almost, Bowling For Soup
63. Hate It Or Love It, The Game & 50 Cent
64. Just A Lil' Bit, 50 Cent
65. Let Me Hold You, Bow Wow featuring Omarion
66. Just The Girl, Click Five
67. Grind With Me, Pretty Ricky
68. Numb / Encore, Jay-Z & Linkin Park
69. Cold, Crossfade
70. How We Do, The Game featuring 50 Cent
71. Speed Of Sound, Coldplay
72. Outta Contro,l 50 Cent featuring Mobb Deep
73. Hung Up, Madonna
74. Cater 2 U, Destiny's Child
75. When I'm Gone, Eminem
76. Goin' Crazy, Natalie
77. Wonderful, Ja Rule featuring Ashanti & R. Kelly
78. I Just Wanna Live, Good Charlotte
79. It's Like That, Mariah Carey
80. Only U, Ashanti
81. Girl, Destiny's Child
82. Pimpin' All Over The World, Ludacris
83. Hold You Down, Jennifer Lopez featuring Fat Joe
84. Soul Survivor, Young Jeezy featuring Akon
85. If You Were Mine, Marcos Hernandez
86. Look What You've Done, Jet
87. Don't Bother, Shakira
88. Signs, Snoop Dogg featuring Charlie Wilson & Justin Timberlake
89. Fall To Pieces, Avril Lavigne
90. Boyfriend, Ashlee Simpson
91. More Than Words, Frankie J
92. N Dey Say, Nelly
93. Here By Me, 3 Doors Down
94. Somewhere Only We Know, Keane
95. Follow Through, Gavin DeGraw
96. Encore, Eminem featuring Dr. Dre & 50 Cent
97. Shine On, Ryan Cabrera
98. Get Right, Jennifer Lopez
99. Here We Go, Trina featuring Kelly Rowland
100. Like Toy Soldiers, Eminem



A) Put your iPOD/mp3 player on shuffle & name the first 10 songs that play (title plus artist).
1. Best Of You- Foo Fighters
2. Another Piece of my heart- Janis Joplin
3. It's Been Awhile- Staind
4. Lacrymosa- Evanescence
5. On Your Shore- Charlotte Martin
6. Waiting On The World To Change- John Mayer
7. Nothing Good About Goodbye- Hinder
8. Tonight I Wanna Cry- Keith Urban
9. Get Free- The Vines
10. Give Unto Me- Evanescence

B) For each song, write what it means to you.
1. I like this song because he is telling someone he doesn't appreciate being abused and he is standing up for himself.

2. This is a cool song because it is so bluesy and she is telling it like it is.
3. .This song is just expressing himself and expressing his depression, I like it.
4. This song is a deep, penetrating song, like most of their songs. It helps me to think clearly about my own feelings.
5. The song On your shore is great, because it is expressing how she feels towards someone and how deeply she feels for that person.

6. This song is a hopeful song.
7. This is an honest song about the games that girls and guys play with each other.
8. This song is an emotional song and I enjoy it.
9. There is something about this song that is just catchy and makes me feel good.
10. Deep

C) For each song, describe what you think about the artist/band.
1. I like the Foo Fighters. I enjoy their lyrics and the musicianship.
2. Janis Joplin is a ballsy, bluesy woman.

3. I only know this one Staind song and I enjoy it.

4. Evanescence is awesome in their lyrics and music.
5. I enjoy Charlotte Martin a lot, her songs are deep.

6. This is the only song I know by John Mayer

7. Hinder is ok.
8. I really like Keith Urban.

9. Honestly, this is the only song I know by the Vines
10.I love Evanescences deep thoughts and lyrics.


1. How old will you be in five years?


2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?
Monte came by and we ate dinner and talked about things. It was a great visit.

3. How tall are you?

4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
March 26th, and slowly losing the battle of the bulge.

5. What's the last movie you saw?
Manchurian Canidate with Denziel Washington and Meryl Streep. It is a good movie. Thanks Monte for loaning it to me.

6. Who was the last person you called?

7. Who was the last person to call you?

8. Who was the last text message from that you received?
I think it was Karen.

9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?
My mom

10. Do you prefer to call or text?

11. What were you doing at 12am last night?
reading my new book that my sister Vickie bought me. It is called Shut up, Stop Whining, and Get a Life, it is an awesome book and I'm nearly finished. It is well worth a reread.

12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
My mom and dad were married for 50 years until my dad passed away.

13. When is the last time you saw your mom?
a week ago, I'm excited I get to see her tuesday

14. What color are your eyes?

15. What time did you wake up today? 9am

16. What are you wearing right now?
my pjs

17. What is your favorite christmas song?
Little Drummer boy

18. Where is your favorite place to be?
ithe beach or anyplace where there is water

19. Where is your least favorite place to be?
the desert, though it depends.

20. Where do you want to travel to?
I want to see the whole entire world.

21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
I hope to have my own business, wonderful friends and family to share things with and have my full health too.

22. Do you tan or burn?
I burn

23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
When I was a little girl, I think 2nd grade the music teacher played the Banshee music for us and the sound freaked me out. I always thought he banshee was going to get me.

24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?
Today, when Monte flipped his football and it landed in my hair. Nice!!

25. How many TVs do you have in your house?

26. How big is your bed?
It is a queen

27.Do you have a laptop or desktop?

28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

29. What color are your sheets?

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

31. What season is your favorite?
I like spring and fall.

32. What do you like about fall?
I love the changing colors and the crisp chilly weather.

33. What do you like about winter?
I'm not a fan

34. What do you like about summer?
I like the flowers and the vegetables that are being grown. And the warm weather.

35. What do you like about spring?
see everything come back up from the dead of winter.

36. How many states have you lived in?

37. What cities/towns have you lived in?

38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
barefeet or my clogs or flip flops

39. Are you a social person?

40. What was the last thing you ate?
a good beef wrap

42. What is your favorite ice cream

43. What is your favorite dessert?
blueberry cheesecake

44. What is your favorite kind of soup?
clam chowder

45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?

46. Do you like Chinese food?
I have to be in the mood

47. Do you like coffee?
it depends on if it is the cheap stuff or not.

48. How much water, a day, do you drink on average?
a lot

49. What do you drink in the morning?
water or juice

51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?

52. Do you know how to play poker?

53. Do you like to cuddle?

54. Have you ever been to Canada?

55. Do you have an addictive personality?
only to food

56. Do you eat out or at home more often?
I eat at home

58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?

59. Do you want kids?

60. Do you speak any other languages?

61. Have you ever gotten stitches?

62. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
yes, twice

63. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
both are nice.

64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seats?

65. Do you know how to drive a stick?

66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
music and clothes

67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?

68. What is your favorite TV show?
I like Heros and the Medium

69. Can you roll your tongue?

70. Who is the funniest person you know?
Monte and Russ

71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

72. What is your main ring tone?
I don't know what it is called.

73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
I have a shirt that my mom made me and I want to make a pillow out of it or something, because I'll never be able to wear it again.

74. What red object is closest to you right now?
my blanket

75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth?

76. Do you sleep with your T.V. on or off?

77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?
none please

78. Do you flirt a lot?
not that I know of.

79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
ranch or blue cheese

81. Can you change the oil on a car?

82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?..

83. Have you ever run out of gas?

84. What is your usual bedtime?

85. What was the last book you read?
I am reading it now. It is called Shut up, quite whinning, get alife. I am enjoying it. He puts Dr. Phil to shame.

86. Do you read the newspaper?
when I can.

87. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?

89. Do you watch soap operas?
only days of our lives.

90. Do you dance in the car?
only when there is a good song playing

91. What radio station did you last listen to?
I have a few

92. Who is the clostest picture of?

My dad and mom

93. What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper?
a thank you card to Vickie for the book.

94. What is your favorite candle scent?
cardamon cinnomin

95. What is your favorite board game?
scrabble, monopoly

97. When was the last time you attended church?
a long time ago

98. Who was your favorite teacher in high school?
Mrs Darby and Mrs. Futrell

99. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent?
a week

100. Who was the last person to do something extra special for you?
I have had some special things done for me. Vickie buying and sending me a book, Monte encouraging me when someone is slandering my name, Amber and Christina agreeing to be witnesses, my sister in law going to Longview with me on Tuesday, many blessings.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Underneath It All

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are powerful, passionate, and dominant.

You have a vision of how things should be, and you do your best to make things happen.

People rely on you for your strength. You are a rock to many.

Underneath it all, you aren't so sure about your passions.

So many ideas spark your interest, it is hard for you to get behind a select few.

However, you see indecision as a sign of weakness. So you pursue your goals full force - no matter how foolish they turn out to be.

Friday, March 09, 2007


Mark/Bold what interests you.

Three Days Grace
Linkin Park
Breaking Benjamin
Nine Inch Nails
3 Doors Down
30 Seconds to Mars
Red Hot Chili Peppers

Black Metal:
Cradle of Filth
Dimmu Borgir
Dark Funeral
Psyclon Nine
Vital Remains

Classic Rock:
Alice Cooper
Black Sabbath
The Eagles
Def Leopard
The Doors
The Who
The Feeling
Bob Dylan
Cheap Trick

Rascal Flatts
Carrie Underwood
Taylor Swift
Keith Urban
Kenny Chesney
Brad Paisley
The Dixie Chicks
Trace Adkins
Brooks and Dunn
Tim McGraw

Senses Fail
Something Corporate
Horse the Band
Boys Like Girls
The Suicide Pact

Gnarls Barkley
Bobby Valentino
The Fall of Troy
The Starting Line
The Mars Volta
Tori Amos

Pearl Jam
Stone Temple Pilots
Alice in Chains
Start Trouble
Herman Dune
Screaming Trees
Streetlight Manifesto

Killswitch Engage
Rise Against
As I Lay Dying
Drop Dead, Gorgeous
All That Remains
Story of the Year

Hip Hop:
Lil Wayne
Pretty Ricky
Ying Yang Twins
Young Jeezy
Paul Wall
Yung Joc

The Killers
Say Anything
Plain White T's
Shiny Toy Guns
Bloc Party
The Kooks
Frou Frou
Death Cab for Cutie
Tegan and Sara

Avril Lavigne
The Fray
Nelly Furtado
Edwin McCain
Robin Thicke
Christina Aguilera
Justin Timberlake

Pop Punk:
Hawthorne Heights
Fall Out Boy
Relient K
Amber Pacific
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Good Charlotte
Simple Plan
Green Day
Bowling for Soup
New Found Glory

Reel Big Fish
Toots And The Maytals
Less Than Jake
Alex Campos
The Dead 60s
Big D and the Kids Table
Panteon Rococo
Catch 22
Babylon Circus
Los Pericos

Books, Yes, More Books

*Look at the list of books below.
*Bold the ones you’ve read.
*Italicize the ones you want to read.
*leave same the ones that you aren’t interested in.
*If you are reading this, tag you’re it.

1. The Da Vinci Code (Dan Brown)
2. Pride and Prejudice (Jane Austen)
3. To Kill A Mockingbird (Harper Lee)
4. Gone With The Wind (Margaret Mitchell)
5. The Lord of the Rings: Return of the King (Tolkien)
6. The Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring (Tolkien)
7. The Lord of the Rings: Two Towers (Tolkien)
8. Anne of Green Gables (L.M. Montgomery)
9. Outlander (Diana Gabaldon)
10. A Fine Balance (Rohinton Mistry)
11. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Rowling)
12. Angels and Demons (Dan Brown)
13. Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (Rowling)
14. A Prayer for Owen Meany (John Irving)
15. Memoirs of a Geisha (Arthur Golden)
16. Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone (Rowling)
17. Fall on Your Knees (Ann-Marie MacDonald)
18. The Stand (Stephen King)
19. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (Rowling)
20. Jane Eyre (Charlotte Bronte)
21. The Hobbit (Tolkien)
22. The Catcher in the Rye (J.D. Salinger)
23. Little Women (Louisa May Alcott)
24. The Lovely Bones (Alice Sebold)
25. Life of Pi (Yann Martel)
26. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy (Douglas Adams)
27. Wuthering Heights (Emily Bronte)
28. The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe (C. S. Lewis)
29. East of Eden (John Steinbeck)
30. Tuesdays with Morrie(Mitch Albom)
31. Dune (Frank Herbert)
32. The Notebook (Nicholas Sparks)
33. Atlas Shrugged (Ayn Rand)
34. 1984 (Orwell)
35. The Mists of Avalon (Marion Zimmer Bradley)
36. The Pillars of the Earth (Ken Follett)
37. The Power of One (Bryce Courtenay)
38. I Know This Much is True (Wally Lamb)
39. The Red Tent (Anita Diamant)
40. The Alchemist (Paulo Coelho)
41. The Clan of the Cave Bear (Jean M. Auel)
42. The Kite Runner (Khaled Hosseini)
43. Confessions of a Shopaholic (Sophie Kinsella)
44. The Five People You Meet In Heaven (Mitch Albom)
45. Bible
46. Anna Karenina (Tolstoy)
47. The Count of Monte Cristo (Alexandre Dumas)
48. Angela’s Ashes (Frank McCourt)
49. The Grapes of Wrath (John Steinbeck)
50. She’s Come Undone (Wally Lamb)
51. The Poisonwood Bible (Barbara Kingsolver)
52. A Tale of Two Cities (Dickens)
53. Ender’s Game (Orson Scott Card)
54. Great Expectations (Dickens)
55. The Great Gatsby (Fitzgerald)
56. The Stone Angel (Margaret Laurence)
57. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (Rowling)
58. The Thorn Birds (Colleen McCullough)
59. The Handmaid’s Tale (Margaret Atwood)
60. The Time Traveller’s Wife (Audrey Niffenegger)
61. Crime and Punishment (Fyodor Dostoyevsky)
62. The Fountainhead (Ayn Rand)
63. War and Peace (Tolstoy)
64. Interview With The Vampire (Anne Rice)
65. Fifth Business (Robertson Davis)
66. One Hundred Years Of Solitude (Gabriel Garcia Marquez)
67. The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants (Ann Brashares)
68. Catch-22 (Joseph Heller)
69. Les Miserables (Hugo)
70. The Little Prince (Antoine de Saint-Exupery)
71. Bridget Jones’ Diary (Fielding)
72. Love in the Time of Cholera (Marquez)
73. Shogun (James Clavell)
74. The English Patient (Michael Ondaatje)
75. The Secret Garden (Frances Hodgson Burnett)
76. The Summer Tree (Guy Gavriel Kay)
77. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn (Betty Smith)
78. The World According To Garp (John Irving)
79. The Diviners (Margaret Laurence)
80. Charlotte’s Web (E.B. White)
81. Not Wanted On The Voyage (Timothy Findley)
82. Of Mice And Men (Steinbeck)
83. Rebecca (Daphne DuMaurier)
84. Wizard’s First Rule (Terry Goodkind)
85. Emma (Jane Austen)
86. Watership Down (Richard Adams)
87. Brave New World (Aldous Huxley)
88. The Stone Diaries (Carol Shields)
89. Blindness (Jose Saramago)
90. Kane and Abel (Jeffrey Archer)
91. In The Skin Of A Lion (Ondaatje)
92. Lord of the Flies (Golding)
93. The Good Earth (Pearl S. Buck)
94. The Secret Life of Bees (Sue Monk Kidd)
95. The Bourne Identity (Robert Ludlum)
96. The Outsiders (S.E. Hinton)
97. White Oleander (Janet Fitch)
98. A Woman of Substance (Barbara Taylor Bradford)
99. The Celestine Prophecy (James Redfield)
100. Ulysses (James Joyce)

Thursday, March 08, 2007

Rare, Indeed

Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)

Your personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant.

Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all men

You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.

Friday, March 02, 2007

My Dosha

Your Dosha is Kapha

Calm and grounded, you are not prone to mood swings or anger.

However, once you do get angry, it takes a lot to cool you down.

You tend to think a little slower than most people, but your logic is astounding.

Overall, you very loyal and trustworthy. You're not scared of being who you really are.

With friends: You enjoy their company, but often listen more than talk

In love: You crave connection and affection. It's hard for you to be single.

To achieve more balance: Exercise vigorously (especially in the sun) and let go of attachments.