A great journey in progress!

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Desert Island and 5 DVDS

You're on a desert island with a TV, DVD Player and 5 DVDs (plus enough batteries to run them). Which ones are they?

1. The golden girls box set
2. Pretty In Pink
3. Miss Congeniality
4. First Wives Club
5. Star Wars

Denialville or Illusion Island

Is the effort really worth it? This question is haunting me at this moment in my life. Crawling around on the floor, vacuuming trying to keep a clean environment in my two-bedroom apartment. I do not want to become like I was in Longview in my 5-bedroom house, wallowing in filth and unhappiness. Effort is apart of life, I realize. I am struggling with things on my plate, with my family and friends. I am scared of the truth, but sometimes the truth bites you in the ass when you least expect it. The shroud of illusion that has engulfed me for my entire life, is ripping apart. The red thick tapestry of fabric slowly, tearing down the middle of what I thought was real. I see the truth, I see that I am not consider family to the Coon’s. Those comments and the way of life has turned me into a mess of sorts. A mess that’s encompassing me to the fullest. The reality of the situation is eminent and I have to do something or I will surely die. I have to cut away the fragments that are not truth and start over again. I started this process three long years ago, Ricks death, my father’s death, and the death of an old life that needed to be killed is coming to an end. I am not sure where or what I am going to do. I do know that change needs to happen in me and I’m not sure how to do it or even what to do. All I know is that I’m not happy. I have to do something to change this mood I’m in. I talked to Monte tonight for a few minutes and he doesn’t want me to go through this alone. I am used to being alone, figuring out things alone. The illusions I didn’t do alone, my life is like one of those mirror mazes at the carnival where you walk through these long corridors trying to find your way out into the realism of the world. I do not have what I thought I did.
These judgments that have been made against me, because of stupid choices that I’ve made are not correct. I am unclear of what my steps will be, all I know is I do not like being in this maze anymore. I do have four awesome people who want to help me, Monte, Joy, Amber, and Vickie they do not expect anything from me in return. I want to scream, I don’t want to be here anymore, but I don’t know where to go. Help Me, please, somebody.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Good Times

This picture was taken a few months ago before Trojan wasted into a pile of rubble. We decided to see it a week before it was to be destroyed. You never know what will happen when we get together, some of us get hungry for hair. LOL


While talking to my absolutely talented writing sister, Joy about my incident with the Sheriffs officer, she told me I needed to write my story out or she will do it. Joy is my soul sister friend, though we are not related by blood, we’ve always been able to connect. My blood sister Vickie and I are connected too and they’ve both been encouraging me to write out my story. I haven’t been feeling any inspiration to do it for a long time, I’ve had visions and a miraculous divine that I should, but I have not mastered the editing, punctuation, grammar, and all those things that great writers have in their repertoire. Joy is a master editor, and has that talent for it. I don’t. I do not like editing in the bit, rereading wondering if something is perfect, but yet that is apart of writing, isn’t it?
This thought came to my brain while sleeping last night, I can use this down time that I have to start writing it. Maybe the great universe is telling me it is time and so that is why this is happening. Maybe the start of my story can be what happened yesterday morning.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

The Sheriff And The Toilet

Well, I had the most interesting experience in my life this morning. I fractured my left ankle again a few weeks ago, I'm suppose to stay off of my feet, so I've been a good girl this time and I've been staying off of it. Monte, Amber, my brother Rob, my nephew and his wife have been so kind in helping me out when I need anything. I can't walk and they've been helpful in grocery shopping and stuff for me, which I am grateful for. They are blessings. Back to this experience this morning, some wonderful person called the Adult Protective Services to check up on me, because I haven't been out of my apartment in awhile, so this morning the Sheriffs sent by them, let themselves into my apartment while I was sitting on the toilet. It was so embarassing to me and I'm sure it was to him too. He didn't stay too long, they just wanted to see if I was still alive and kicking. Well I"m not kicking, but I am alive. I am not angry by this, actually, it is a good thing that they have services like this, but it sure was an experience I'll never forget.

Monday, August 07, 2006

My Era

You should have grown up during the twenties

You are cool, sophisticated and hip – even by today’s standards. You like things before they are considered cool, and you like them long afterwards.

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Sunday, August 06, 2006


Name seven cities you'd like to live in that you have not already lived in before.

San Francisco
Any city in Maine

How many different time zones have you lived in? Which one would you most like to live in? I have lived in one time zone

What is the current setting of your home's thermostat? Do you adjust it up or down based on the time of day, or leave it at one setting at all times? My thermostat is off, it is too freaking hot to have it on.

Go to your bedroom closet (or the closet in which you keep the majority of your clothes. Take a quick glance: what color do you see the most of? Is this color your favorite color? If not, why do you have more of it than your favorite color? My shirts are either pink or red. These are two of my favorite colors, though I do need to get some other colors going.

Imagine your dream house: how many stories would your ultimate home have? One story

Ripped from the Headlines: An underage teenager decides he does not want to undergo a particularly rough regimen of chemotherapy to treat his cancer. With his parents' blessing, he decides to pursue an alternate treatment to be supervised by a clinic that is outside of the country. Should a court intervene and force the teen to undergo the "traditional" treatment? How much does the prognosis for successful treatment with the chemotherapy affect your judgment?
The government needs to keep their freaking nose out of peoples personal choices for medicine. If the parents have okayed it and said it was alright with them, then what the hell is the problem. Secondly, chemo is not that great in the first place for treating cancer.

Name your picks for your favorite seven game shows. (If you're not a big game show fan, that's okay: just name up to seven shows you'd at least expect to see on that list.)

Wheel Of Fortune
The Weakest Link
Who wants to be a millionaire
The price is right
25,000 pyramid


You scored as Wolverine. Wolverine is a loner, and a skilled fighter. He's got the hots for Jean Grey but a better fit for him would be Storm. He doesn't like to follow orders which pisses Cyclops off. He has terrible memories from the experimentation done on him at Weapon X. Even though he doesn't show it, he loves the X-Men. Powers: Fast healing and adamantium skeleton and claws.







Jean Grey




Emma Frost












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