Sunday Serenity

Planet Earth

Watched the BBC "Planet Earth" disc three today. Wolves were shown on the "Great Plains" episode, along with some beautiful creatures. Amazing how all these creatures survive and live thru all sorts of disasters and enemies who are out to feed off of them.

Instrument Of Peace

Lips Unsealed

Just read Belinda Carlisle's memoir "Lips Unsealed" about her life, her thoughts, and her miraculous healing from addiction from drugs and alcohol. I love Belinda Carlisle, her style, her attitude, her voice, and most of all her ability to transform herself. So, was surprised by her expressing a lack of self worth and esteem. Personally, and I'm sure not the only person who believes this, but she's a beauty. I enjoyed her memoir a lot, and felt that she was being real about her life, not unlike some memoirs you read and you feel that the person is not being real about anything. It's a great memoir and worth the time to read, especially if you are a fan.

Loving My Planet

I'm watching disc two of the BBC Planet Earth Series. This disc includes "Caves", "Desert", and "Ice Worlds". I absolutely love the two discs of this series that I've seen so far and can't wait until the other three come my way. Despite the anger that I'm feeling about the oil spill and the selfish, thoughtless acts that BP has done to our resources. I cannot help but in awe of our planet and all the critters, humans, and plant life that's all around us. We are stewards of the planet, so shouldn't we be respectful and nurturing to it? We do have to live here and we are suppose to be the smartest species, sometimes I do wonder if that's true. Anyway, just a small reminder to be nurturing to myself and to the other living things on our planet...

The Most Powerful Computer

The Brain... Amazing how powerful that walnut looking body part is. Every part of our body is controlled by some cortex of the brain and then we don't think about the care or maintenance required to sustain our lives. You are considered dead when you're brain is not functioning, even when your heart is beating, you are still gone. You are off line, not connected to your body anymore. The reason I've started on a rambling musing about the brain centers on the fact Saturday I went to a seminar with my sister Carri and several women discussing abuse, trauma, and development of the brain. And guess what happened, my fascination and curiosity followed. The speaker Partricia Warford captured my intellectual mind with her entire speech. I never realized how we developed in the womb, and how soon we actually start connecting outside the womb. Ten days after conception we start noticing, hearing, and feeling our mother. We can hear her, even thru all the gunk, we hear her. Then at three months your hearing is even stronger and you start recognizing outside, such as your father or siblings and we are drawn to that relationship. That's amazing to me. That helps our brain acquire language skills. Language I learned, is centered in the part of the brain that our emotions are in. So emotions and language are so connected. Warford got me to analyzing myself in so many ways and how to nurture your brain for healing and especially from the trauma sustained thru life. No wonder so many problematic fractures such as PTSD, RADS, and others have happened. Food for thought, food for considering the importance of nurture becomes to individuals. I took so many notes, but want to do some more research before sharing them all. So more posts will eventually be written.

Book Giveaway

My lovely sister Joy generously is hosting a giveaway on a book titled "The Cast Aways" GO sigh up for the chance to win a new summer read.

Serenity

Grace And Gratitude

Olivia Newton-Johns starred in the DVD that I watched by Deepak Chopra "The Seven Spiritual Laws Of Success", she wrote and sang on the DVD and brought back the fact that I love her and her music and her spiritual journey. I want her CD "Grace And Gratitude" and will get the CD soon. The Chopra DVD is very good and inspirational, informative, and challenging.

Up In The Air

Last night before dreamland, I watched George Clooney's Movie "Up In The Air. Absolutely, loved the movie, could be simply that George Clooney charm and talent brings a certain quality to the story or the fact, that the story hit a certain spot. It's both, at least to me. Watch this movie and enjoy humor, tenderness, romance, and love, all sorts of love between all the individuals involved, that quality made the story stand out the most to me.

Appreciating My Planet.

While sitting and healing, started watching "The Planet Earth" series that everyone raved about a couple of years ago. Finally, am watching and must say that I'm absolutely in love with the my planet and the way they have filmed it. Have to admit I've only seen disc one of the series and am so excited to get the other four discs from Netflix.

Refugee

Absolutely love this song. For the last couple of days, since my surgery last Tuesday, many things have been popping in my dreams, have no idea if my dreams are induced by the drugs for the pain or just simply my spirit telling me "its time to wake up". I'm inclined to believe it's spirit, God, the divine wisdom that resides in me. As my friend Linda so amply put this morning, "i don't have to eat the whole elephant at one time." Which tends to be what happens when I've finally made up my mind. So, for the month of June will be trying an experiment, will be asking spirit, Jesus, God, the divine what's one thing to do today, and then do that one thing whatever it is. Will not be living as a refugee anymore...

Home At Last

I'm home, never thought I'd be so excited to be at home. My one day surgery turned out to be a three day stay, only two or three more surgeries before the problem in my throat is cured. Acid reflux while I'm sleeping is the cause, am so glad that it wasn't the other two variables Dr. Anderson suggested. Am feeling blessed, relieved, and a deep sense of gratitude. So, a couple of days of rest, then time to start on my five things to accomplish this month. While at the hospital I started Dr. Wayne Dyers book Inspirations and am loving it. Something so real and thought provoking about him. Well, am off to go read and get some rest.

The Beginning Of My 36th Year.

One day until surgery, yes, another surgery just as before. I'll be having at three more until whatever is in my throats gone. The strange thing, am at peace with it. Grateful, finally answers to my questions. Tomorrow I'll even have more answers. Some how the last six months brought on some changes to my attitude and even to my relationships. My thirty sixth year will be a miraculous adventure. That became evident on my birthday, which was Friday. The whole day, one thing after another happened, both good and bad and somehow everything meshed well. To where fear, anger, resentment, and most of all paralysis have vanished. Compulsion to sit around and wait for a certain friend to be a friend disappeared to where it does not matter at all. I've got plans, and also the gumption to get them done, only two days and then the gate to my journey will be open to me and the next chapter of my life can begin. Actually, its already began last Friday, the first day of my thirty sixth year. Where for the first time, contentment and love resided beside me with my family and friends, from close by, to far away. My sister in law Chris took me to the Rose Garden, the roses weren't all in bloom, but many flowers were. Where we walked a little ways and saw the outline of this magnificent city garden located in Portland Oregon. Plans for going back are in my agenda this summer. Then we drove around for eighty miles looking at awesome homes and scenic views and yep, cemetaries too. Then we went home and ate cheese, bread, and played a couple of games before going to my home at 4 AM. Many more great days will happen...

Freedom

How many.

HowManyOfMe.com

There are people with my name in the U.S.A. How many have your name?

Mother's Day and Spring

Song I Hate

I'm giving up on you
How could I ever call you mine
You're too pretty, too simple, too easy
You're just a waste of time, yeah

And I won't miss you when you're gone
You never move me anyway
I wanna wish you all the best and send you off
I hope somebody finds you entertaining

You're the song I hate
But I can't let go
You're the song I hate
But I can't let go

You know it gets so hard, so hard to keep moving on
Through all your petty little changes
Sometimes I wish I could just close my eyes
Wish you away

You're the song I hate
But I can't let go
You're the song I hate
But I can't let go

You're the song I (x3)
You're the song I hate

I tried so hard to change you to make you
Something I could enjoy
But you insist on just acting the plaything
You're just a toy, just a toy

You're the song I hate
But I can't let go
You're the song I hate
But I can't let go

You're the song I (x3)
You're the song that I hate

You're the song I hate
But I can't let go
You're the song I hate
But I can't let go

Yeah
The song that I hate
Uh!
You're the song I hate

Tulips

Me From The Inside

Went and got another CT Scan at Vancouver Radiology. A surprise they gave me a photo copy of my scan. I find it a miraculous thing to see my brain, throat, and spine. Am hoping to be having surgery to cure my breathing issue sometime in May.