Snowy Weather

It’s snowing! It’s gorgeous outside, I’m thankful I didn’t have to drive in it. I had fun watching the giant snowflakes fall from the sky, and watching the kids play in the snow.
I now have a TV to watch my DVDs on, a friend’s mother gave me a 19 inch TV and I just got it all set up today. I’ve got a lot of things to look forward to for 2010, my sister Joy is visiting from Phoenix Oregon, school, more weight loss, I can breath, and of course, my beautiful apartment. I am slowly getting back into the groove of my life, concentrating on getting healthy for the fall quarter of college. I am still a bit sick, coughing, but I still sound good and its not getting me down at all.

Christmas Blessings

A slight set back made itself know the last couple of days. My right ankle swelled up and my left wrist and elbow too. I am still grateful that I can breath and these are symptoms of my body trying to heal itself with oxygen and also I haven’t been able to function for a long time. Epsom salt baths help the pain and so does ibuprofen.
Despite the pain, I went to my brother Rob’s house for Christmas where we had a fabulous dinner. I got to see my mom, who hasn’t been able to see me well and she’s doing awesome herself, my sister Carri and her son Levi, and of course, Rob’s family. I enjoyed myself playing games of Apple to Apples and a new game of Catan. My brother Rob who doesn’t usually participate in games played both with us. It was fun…
I received a blood pressure monitor and warm fuzzy socks for Christmas from my sister Carri and my mom. I also got a new wardrobe from my sister Vickie too. My friend Monte gave me a gift card for Barnes and Nobles, a nice surprise.
I am still taking it easy, not going to let my ankle, elbow, and wrist detour me from exercising or accomplishing my plans. I won’t be my usual bull self and over do it.
I got an unexpected coffee invite from an old friend that I have not seen in forever. I am going. It will be awesome to see her and hear about her adventures.
I am also working on my list of goals for 2010 and I’ll be posting them here and on Creative Change. I feel that I have missed so much with the strydor breathing issue that I am having a hard time not overwhelming myself with everything I want to do and accomplish. I am having a hard time remembering that I must take it easy… It’s also about choices and I believe I am going to just choose 3 things at a time for now. I don’t want to wear myself out or discourage myself from even trying. How do you encourage yourself when you have new goals ahead of you?

Sick, But Grateful!

I feel terrible. After last weeks big deal, now I am fighting a stuffy nose, sore throat, and an ear ache. I want to go spend Christmas with my brother Rob and his family, but I fear that will not happen if I continue to have this sickness. On top of that, someone that I consider to be a friend is acting like a butthead. Saying he only likes hanging with me half the time and I make him uncomfortable and so on. I don’t need anymore. I am feeling so exhausted by last weeks ordeal and the year long battle to get some oxygen and now this. My head cold is not what’s bothering me. It’s the fact that for 5 years this same old battle with my friend goes on and on. He is not clear on anything, I do not know what the heck is going on. I never will, I realize.
I am taking a week to myself, to rest, to heal, to get better both physically and emotionally. I need this. Today, I did absolutely nothing, no chores, nothing at all. I watched several movies Alexander with Colin Ferrell and Angelina Jolie. I don’t know if I like Oliver Stones version or not.
Despite being sick, I am thankful I can take a deep breath and walk to my mail box and not sound like a moose. I am still making long term plans for my future. I need rest and retreat to come to terms with everything I’ve gone through. I’ll keep everyone posted on what everything and my progress.

I Can Breath!

I am back on the net. I haven’t been able to blog for five months. In the mean time, so many things have happened to me.
For over a year, I’ve been literally fighting to breath. It first started when I gained seventy five pounds of water in two days, they couldn’t hear my lungs with the stethoscope. That was over a year ago. Slowly, as time went on, it got worse. I do not know how to describe the debilitating feeling and embarrassment I felt going out in public. I sounded like a moose to myself, so I can just imagine what it sounded like to everyone else. I knew something was wrong, family and friends did to, but nothing was discovered which was irritating. I couldn’t function well, I forced myself to accomplish what I had to. It was not a life at all.
In March of 2009 I moved in with my nephew and his wife, did not go well. They couldn’t handle watching me, I truly do not blame them. While there, I got myself established with a great doctor. Dr. Collins started helping me, doing blood tests, I wasn’t making blood, a vital part of being a human. He couldn’t figure out why. In October, I got so tired of living a mundane existence that I made an appointment with him to help me with my breathing. It seemed to have gotten worse. I could take a breath in, but I couldn’t feel it in my lungs. Try this, take a huge breath, feel your lungs and see your chest rise, mine was not doing that. When I got to his office on that October day, he heard my moose call, it alarmed him. He gave me a nebulizer treatment, a steroid shot, an inhaler, and steroid pills. It all seemed to help for a brief moment, I felt high, but still no lung action. He also scheduled me for a lung function test, thank God he did that instead of an x-ray or a CT scan, because that is what ultimately saved my life. On December 10th, my sister Carri and I went in for my lung function test. Oh man, that was the hardest thing I had to do. I couldn’t do it. Carl the technician was patient and kind and seemed alarmed. He made several comments to me " I never seen anyway breathe that way before". In the car, Carri my sister told me that my lips were blue. After the test, I drove home. Rob, my brother met me at my apartment and carried my groceries in. I had to take several breaks. 15 minutes after Rob left, Dr. Collins called me personally. He couldn’t reach me, because my stupid cell phone kept going to voice mail. Finally he reached me, he told me that the lung function test said I had a constriction somewhere in my neck or chest. He wanted me to go back to Longview a forty five minute drive back to get a CT scan and then I was to go back to his office where he was going to have me admitted. I did not feel up to driving back to Longview, so my sister in law and my sister got me there. Carri, a trooper stayed with me thru out the whole ordeal. I had to wait 3 hours in the CT scan for the blood test and then they injected contrast die into my arm and ran the test. Then we waited in the waiting room for hours it seemed. Where the desk nurse thought for sure I was going to be admitted. Dr. Collins went home, and his on call Dr., Dr. Randall called the desk to talk to me and told me the CT scan saw nothing and I was free to go home. He said to me that I should be ok sense I’ve been dealing with this for over a year. I was too pooped to scream or do anything. That is what I wanted to do. Carri saw that my face was disappointed and I was going to cry, but I didn’t. So we called my big sister in Alabama and told her what was going on. She told Carri to take me to the ER. So, we went. The desk lady there heard my strydor cough. A strydor cough is the cough that happens when you are getting close to dying. She rushed me into the ER room, and the doctor was in there in seconds. I had several nurses working on me. I felt overwhelmed, tired, pissed off, grateful, and so many feelings that I couldn’t keep it all together. I tried to remain calm, but I felt this stinging anger towards Dr. Randall. I couldn’t understand why he couldn’t hear what everyone else heard. Dr. Lucas, the ER doctor, called a Dr. Davis, an Ear Nose and Throat doctor from his home. He thought I sounded like an interesting case. He came in, talked for a minute then took out his lycroscope, which is a long tool, looks like a fishing pole with a microscope at the end of it. He stuck it in and down my left nostril and to the base of my throat and had me do sounds so he could seem thru my voice box. That was the most uncomfortable thing I have ever gone thru. It didn’t hurt, felt so strange having something go down my nose and to my throat. Felt like a big, long burger, yuck. I felt like one of those alien movies where the alien was sticking his probe down my nose. I am thankful for that tool, because of that tool, Dr. Davis saw what the problem was. He didn’t say anything, accept that he was going to see the CT scan and then talk to the radiologist. He came back with Dr. Lucas and told us what was up. I felt relieved. Scared, but relieved, because finally there was an answer. I was admitted to the hospital at OHSU in Portland Oregon. I was so glad I didn’t drive myself. I didn’t leave for OHSU until 2 Am and got to OHSU at about 3 AM. Where I got examined and admitted into the hospital, at about 5 AM I had my room. I was so exhausted, but still felt relieved. I had a beautiful room, the presidential suit at OHSU. I saw Mt. Hood and a glorious sunrise. My room was so huge for just one person. Even though I was struggling with breathing, I felt a huge weight lifted off of my body. I didn’t mind the IVS, the blood pressure checks, the IV drip, and all the hoopla associated with being in the hospital. I had a team of Doctors who were going to help and I’ll soon be able to function again.
At 11 Am, I went in for my surgery. Dr. Flint performed the surgery, thank you so much. They put another IV into my wrist, ouch… I had a 90 percent blockage of scar tissue just below my voice box. They took a biopsy, all the tests were clear. They think I have an auto immune disease. So, I am going in for blood tests to see if that is the case. There is a 50 percent chance it can come back, at least now Dr. Collins and I can take care of it. My throat still feels sore and I feel stretched just below my neck, yet, I am so thankful for all the doctors, family, and my few friends who have and are still supporting me. My sister Vickie flew up from Alabama to stay with me. She just went home today. We had a great time visiting and getting to know each other as adults. She went with me to Dr. Collins office. She told me she felt that I was just going to give up and that was what I was doing. Ricky my nephew felt that was too. That wasn’t the case. Dr. Collins, Dr. Flint both asked how did I do it. How did I not lay down and give up on my life? All I could say was I do not know. I forced myself, but that really isn’t the answer. I feel that it wasn't my time to go. I still have many goals and pursuits to journey thru. I have been told and I am thinking to myself, since I am strong enough to survive this, I can do anything I set my mind to.
Now, I am on my way to recovering. I now feel that I will be able to go back to school next fall, to lose the 80 pounds to reach 200 pounds, and whatever my heart desires. Now I feel free to dream again. All I could concentrate on was trying to breathe, that I didn’t dream of other projects, or try to do anything else but survive. I feel, look, and have a different outlook on my life. Thank you universe, Carri, Vickie, Joy, Rob, and my friends…

Vitamin D

Yesterday, I got a phone call from my doctors office, concerning my blood test that I got done last week. Low and behold, I am low in vitamin D. Normal range is 30, and I'm at 11.5. So, he prescribed me vitamin D, 50,000 IU's, and I only have to take the small pill once a week for six weeks. How do they get so much into such a tiny pill?
I went on the internet and found out some information about vitamin D. I learned that it causes depression, hypertension, heart disease, fatigue, and obesity. I am suffering from a few of these. I am looking forward to seeing how taking a vitamin D pill will help me feel better...

New Moon

I can't wait until November 20th when the second book becomes a movie and the series continues. Here's a trailer of the movie, looks so awesome... I'm excited.

On Writing

Yes, another Tori video. I like how she thinks and how she writes.

An Artist

Found this great interview on Tori's latest album and wanted to share...

Maybe

Tori


Got Tori on the brain still, can you tell?

Little Earthquakes

Thoughts

"So strange. Woke up to a world that I am not a part except when I can play it's stranger." Tori Amos

A photo of the theater ceiling in Portland Oregon called Arlene Schnitzer Hall. I was privileged to see Tori Amos on Saturday night in this amazing place.
I am in awe of the blessing to get to see her perform many of her songs. She performed for two yours, and man can she perform. She's a passionate spirit that knows herself and her soul comes thru in every song she does.
It's a rainy Monday. Many thought cloud my mind today, yesterday too. I love this line from one of her songs... I am going to get lost in the story world of Tori and my new book... Enjoy your Monday.

Tori Amos

I went to see Tori Amos last night with my friend Monte last night. I have been in a funk for awhile, going to the show energized my spirit. Anyone who knows me, knows how much I love and appreciate her music.
She put on a fantastic 2 hour show, that blew me away. I was so impressed with her talent of playing two keyboards at once. WOW!

Expedition

I started watching Expedition Africa show on Hulu, because it filled a sense of adventure to me. I’ve always wanted to travel around the world, to experience different cultures, food, music, and people. Miriyea, Kevin, Benedict, and Pasquale, explorers who are following Henry Morton Stanley and Dr. David Livingstone expedition in 1871 through Ujiji Africa. So, I got off my butt, went out and saw the front yard this morning. I counted it as my exercise today, because I was using my muscles. Baby Girl went with me, we explored our front yard. I took photos until my battery died.
I enjoyed myself, a good meditative experience for me.

Sport Bikes

I'm not normally into sport bikes, since its my nephew Ric, I am posting his youtube video on my blog. He's been into sport bikes since being a boy, and always loved doing stunts.

Apologize

ttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ePyRrb2-fzs

Green

I've been sick the last few days. Thankfully, I am starting to feel better... I took this photograph at the public library two weeks ago. I absolutely love trees...

Learning To Fly

Went to the library today with Jessica and Micah. I didn’t actually go into the library, but I did enjoy sitting outside looking at the pretty trees and flowers. I wanted to get out of the house, enjoy some fresh air, and do something different than what I’ve been doing. I got my camera out and start snapping photographs, something I love to do. Still breaking out of my funk, and learning to fly. I listened to Tom Petty last night, the song “Learning To Fly” resonated deep within my soul. So much so, that I have chosen it to be my call tone, so when someone calls me that’s what they’ll hear. That's what's on my mind...

Learning To Fly
Tom Petty
Greatest Hits

Well I started out down a dirty road
Start out all alone
And the sun went down as I crossed the hill
And the town lit up, the world got still

I’m learning to fly, but I ain’t got wings
Coming down is the hardest thing

Well the good old days may not return
And the rocks might melt and the sea may burn

I’m learning to fly, but I ain’t got wings
Coming down is the hardest thing

Well some say life will beat you down
Break your heart, steal your crown
So I’ve started out for God knows where
I guess I’ll know when I get there

I’m learning to fly, around the clouds
But what goes up must come down.

I’m learning to fly, but I ain’t got wings
Coming down is the hardest thing

Boy, Does That Taste Good!

This is Baby Girl, the newest edition to Ric and Jessica's family. I needed to laugh, and this photo made me laugh...

Sewing Or Sowing...

I decided that I needed to get out of my funky mood, so I went to Joanne’s craft store with Jessica today. I got a new cross stitch project. I am doing a small pattern on pillow cases, butterflies, daisies, and ferns, in colors of white, peach, and shades of green, beautiful. I got all the threads organized, wrapped around the plastic holders, ready for me to start stitching. While handling the colorful threads, I started seeing some things. At first, I was mindlessly wrapping the thread around the pearl white holder, then suddenly thoughts of where my life is heading came to me. Somehow, I have ended up back at the beginning of my life, the stitches have unraveled, and now, a clean slate lays before. I still have some of the holes left where previous stitches have gone before, but do I even want to go back into that same hole, or do I want to make another pattern.? I want another pattern. I want my life to go into another direction, and I want whole new thread.
I believe, that my funks, or depression, whatever you call it, happens when someone finally gets tired of the mucky, chunky diaherra of their lives and the soul is speaking to them. My soul’s talking to me. I am listening. I do believe in what the bible, and other books say, “you sow what you reap” and “Karma”. So, with this new cross stitch project, and other projects that I want to accomplish, I am making a new pattern for my life. I do know, despite my negative thoughts, I do have several people who do love me, they just don’t show it in the way I can see it now, maybe soon I’ll be able to see it better…

Pocket Full Of Sunshine.

This song says how I am feeling... I just added my photo to it.


"Pocketful Of Sunshine"

[Interlude]
I got a pocket,
got a pocket full of sunshine
I've got a love and I know that it's all mine
oh.oh,oh
Do what you want,
but you're never gonna break me,
sticks and stones are never gonna shake me
oh,oh,oh

[Chorus]
Take me away (take me away)
A secret place (a secret place)
A sweet escape (a sweet escape)
Take me away (take me away)
Take me away (take me away
To better days (to better days)
Take me away (take me away)
A hiding place (a hiding place)

[Interlude]

I got pocket,
Got a pocket full of sunshine
I've got a love and I know that it's all mine
oh,oh,oh

Wish that you could,
but you ain't gonna own me
do anything you can to control me
oh,oh,oh

[Chorus]

[Hook]
There's a place that I go
That nobody knows
Where the rivers flow
And I call it home
And there's no more lies
And the darkness is light
And nobody cries
there's only butterflies

[Chorus 2x]

[Chorus & Interlude]

The sun is on my side
Take me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know I'll be alright

The sun is on my side
Take me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know I'll be alright

Journey To Self

Watching the chick flicks, “The Holiday” and “Sex And The City, The Movie”, I kept wondering what the heck is wrong with me. These romances, searching for the prince that’ll sweep you off your feet, a relationship, that’s full of love, trust, and issues, and here I am not evening willing to chance it. Don’t get me wrong, I love both of these movies and other romantic movies, just that I have always thought it would never happen to me. Somehow, ingrained in my mind, heart, and soul were the words from my sister, mom, and a few others, that you will never attract a man, or be relationship material. I thought I was lucky that I had a ten year relationship, but when he died, I thought that was it. I have signed up for some dating sites, but only at the urging of my friends. I don’t feel satisfied, I feel creepy about the whole process of advertising yourself, putting the make-up and having those sexy photos on there to attract a man. I still have issues with the whole process. Yet, deep down inside, where I hide a lot of things, I do have the desire of a relationship, that’s different than I have ever had, but the fear, the shame, the whole humiliating process of finding him makes me run and hide under my blankets. I keep deluding myself into thinking that I have to do some major changing before that’ll ever happen. That I have to be perfect, that the gross, stinky mess that my life’s in has to be completely abolish before I even start. I have reverted too far the other way, to where, I purposely hide from people, men, women, the romance, so I don’t have to deal with the painful rejection, or even have to work at all, saying to myself and to others that I am perfectly happy alone, am I really? No, that’s a big fat lie. I do like to spend a lot of time in quiet contemplation, but I also enjoy the company of people who make me laugh, that I can have deep spiritual and intellectual talks about many different subjects with. So, at the age of 35, I am forging a new path of self discovery, but the thing is, this path is not new. It’s the one I started in 2004 when Rick died and all these new and exciting experiences started happening for me. I have had some key people in my life who have shinned their beacon of knowledge on me, that I still hold in high esteem. Yet, a lot of these relationships are changing, hopefully to something better.
I am in a moment of asking questions to the universe. What’s my purpose? Who can I trust? Where do I want to go? Some of the questions roaming around in my old noggin. In my dreams, I have gotten some answers, some of them have been complete surprises coming out of nowhere, and some I have already known. Yet, I possess this lazy, unmotivated, hard headed chick who says screw this, I’m going to travel down this path, even if I totally destroy myself. That’s the part of me I want to shut up.
As I sit here, in my pajamas, propped up by pillows on my bed, gazing out the window at a big evergreen tree and mass vines of blackberry bushes and morning glories, I am beginning to ponder many things in my life. The people, the places I’ve been, and my role in this universe. I only know one thing for sure, that some part of me is waiting for the big fireworks to tap me on the shoulder and guide me to where I am meant to be and where I actually have some peace of mind and happiness. That’s just another Jamie fantasy, this divine being guiding me to where I need to be, to where I am to be blissfully happy, all knowing, all glowing with the joyfulness of finally figuring out the great cosmic universe. Yeah right, that’s every going to happen. Scientist can’t even say they know the whole universe of life and what exactly happen, that’s why they argue about it. Maybe that’s just it, I’m going to have to accept that I am not going to know anything more until it’s ready to be revealed to me. Ugh! I don’t like that at all, what can I do about I? Nothing, it’s going to happen whether I want it to or not.
Can you tell, that I am seconding guessing my thoughts, feelings, passions, goals, you name it, I am probably doing it. I admit to the public and to myself that I have a major problem with follow thru, finding and keeping my motivation, and most importantly losing the real perspective of life. I am so good at seeing it for everyone else, when it comes to me, I have the blinders on.
Perhaps, the question what happens now? Do I keep whining, do I perhaps stay stuck in an unhealthy situation? Or do I follow the knowledge and wisdom that my dreams tell me? To be continued as this enlightening journey leads me…

Library

The Longview Public Library... I love the way the tree leaves cover the brick building.

Give

With the fear of losing my photographs on my computer, I have saved them all onto a DVD-R. It took a good 30 minutes to accomplish this goal. I had 6 g’s of photos on the disc when it was all finished. I chose to do this after not having my computer for a couple of months, because I thought the plug part on the computer was fried, turned out to be the cord, thankfully. I am happy to be back on the computer, to have my music, my photographs, and to be back on the net. Now that I have my computer, now I am on a quest to make a sanctuary for myself in the room, I have been given.
I am hoping to get my stuff out of storage this weekend and to unpack some of my items and then maybe I might feel like I am home, instead of this feeling of discontent. I am adding a collection of photos that I’ve taken the last couple months of not having my computer.

Cross Stitching Adventure

Jessica, my niece in law encouraged me to try cross stitching, because she's working on this beautiful fairy. She had this pillow case pattern that she found at the thriftstore, so I started with that. There weren't any directions, so, I got to choose the colors. Jessica showed me the stitch, which wasn't that difficult at all. I actually enjoyed doing it. While watching movies, 'Rose Red", "Stargate", "The Sixth Sense", and "She-Devil", I cross stitched this pillow case. I ended up giving it to my sister/friend Joy. She can sew it into anything she wants to. She's creative in that way...
I have decided to expand my creative adventures a bit. I have not started another project, but I have been drooling over this cross stitch pattern book that Jessica has, so an idea is coming along. Right now, the biggest creative endeavor I'm going to be doing is getting my small room organized, and decorated the way I want it to be. I got some major ideas and plans to accomplish my the fall...

Such A Long Time

I have been away for a long time. My computer's cord decided not to work and finally I had the time to call HP for a replacement. Now, I'm back.

Several changes have accured since my move back to Longview. First, my friend Amber got married this Monday and is now moving to Idaho. I'm excited, but deeply sad by this. Then there's the changes with my friendship with Monte too. And then dealing with the social dynamics of Rick and Jessica. I love them all, I want more. I do realize, that maybe it's me who has to do some changing. I am an introvert, I don't like sharing my thoughts, concerns, fears, especially with my family. I feel ashamed, humiliation, you can just imagine the spectrum of emotions. I have a long journey that's awaiting me.

Pictures

Ode To The River

I woke up early today. I have a lot of stuff on my mind, I am working towards a lot of issues that have been perplexing to me for a long time. I am not positive of what the answers are, have this sneaky suspicion that the answers don't really exist, who knows?

My apartment is still being constructed. The bathroom is finally starting to look like a bathroom, and soon, I am hoping I will have my own spot. Thats one thing I am truly missing, my own spot. Where my stuff is, where I can make my own food, where I am not being invaded on my big dogs, or big humans, or pouncing cats, or other things, as often. I love my family, I am truly grateful for everything, but sometimes you just need some space.

I am officially starting my physical theraphy this morning, I am a bit nervous about it. I am hoping to build up the strength in both of my legs, and to also build on endurance. I have a feeling that I will be sore today, I'll be exercising in a swimming pool. Jennelle seems like a great physical therapist and she knows what she is doing. I have reverted to toe walking on my left leg, when I was 16 I had achillis tendon surgery on both of my legs. I was a toe walker my entire life, up to that point, my guardians noticed and got something done about it. My right leg is not as flexible either, but I am not toe walking on it. I don't want to go back to that predicament. Now, I have some goals, losing another 100 pounds, my physical theraphy so I don't end up back as a toe walker, getting my own spot, going back to school, and not acting like a complete lunatic over all the changes in my personal life and relationships.

These photographs at the top were taken last Saturday at Willow Grove Beach. Jessica and I went there to let the dogs, Christy, Steve, and Thomas run. The horse was trotting on the water front and Christy the dog wanted to sniff its bottome for a greeting. The horse was not having that. lol Anyway, I brought home a big piece of drift wood, that I want Jesscia to paint a Lord Of The Rings face on for me. Have a great morning...

Happy Spring!

I am still treading along, waiting for my own spot, but feeling well. I felt a momenttary lapse of irritation today, but everything went smoothly.
The daffodils are in bloom and that makes me happy. I have fond memories of daffodils. My mom's been a mast gardener and they were the first signs of spring. Walking home from school, I always knew home was close by when I saw the happy yellow faces swaying in the breeze.

Harvey, the bunny, became my new furry friend last night. He is so cute, fluffy, and soft, and of course, loveable.

Sunday's At Tiffanys'

Sarsaprilla, Quartz, Tourlamine, and Journey's

This the big house project still going on. Dave, Jessica's uncle had to replace the entire plumbing, so he spent most of his time under the house. Now, Rick and Jess need a new kitchen sink, the previous owner did not put it in correctly. We have no kitchen sink, but at least the bathrooms back.
My friend Amber got a pendulum, and I got myself some crystals. I bought a white quarts, pink quartz, and tourlamine. At the Moonshadow store, I saw some cool Tarots while there, Amber got a cool Celtic one. I also bought some Sarsaprilla, whole herb. Sarsaprilla is the root that root beer is made from. I love the sweet smell of it and it makes delicious tea.
I have talked about my friendship with Monte many times on this blog. Well, once again he is doing his normal spill of being offish, its frustrating, but something inside of me is changing. Maybe its the fact that I am growing, though I am camping out in Rick and Jess' living room, I am content. I am still wanting my own spot, but that will happen soon enough. I love having animals back in my life, plus I am swimming for my physical theraphy, and I have made another doctors appointment about my lungs. Seeds have been planted, causing major growth in my life, can you tell?

Give Me J

I am without water, the contractors working on the plumbing today, as he was yesterday. Yesterday, Jessica and I went to the YMCA and we went to water theraphy, then to lunch, where we meet my friend Amber. This morning, I am feeling so tired. Though, I have watched my 3 movies I got from Netflix. Quarantine (wow, all I have to say is if that really happened we would be screwed.), Tinkerbell (was not impressed by what Disney did, but I still love you Tinkerbell.), and Mamma Mia (I love Abbas music and Meryil Streep and Pierce Bronson OMG, such a feel good movie).

You Are Shrewd and Talented

When You Are Comfortable or At Your Best: You are ambitious, and hard-working. Adversity allows you to shine. You resourceful and able to make due. People see you as honest to the point of bluntness. But they always know that you'll be fair. You have the good intentions. When You Are in a Social Setting: You are a powerful, competitive person. While you want to succeed, you are also able to find balance in your life. People see you as self-sufficient. They are impressed by how much you are able to do on your own.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoyourinitialssayaboutyouquiz/">What Do Your Initials Say About You?

Close My Eyes

The photo is the man made pond that Rick and Jessica made in their front yard. They have fish, if you look closely you can see them.
Today, so far, mainly been about organizing and making my spot functional. I am currently camping out in the living room, sleeping on an air mattress, while my place is still being built. Strangely, I am not discontent. I am finding plenty of time to be alone, and do my own thing.
I know that I made the right choice. It's been a week since I've been back into my old home town. I am feeling peaceful and happy. Its about time.

Blue Skies

Blue skies shinning thru again. I don't mean just literally, but also metaphoracally. I am alot happier back home in Longview. I am enjoying spending my time with the animals. Told Rick and Jessica that we should charge admission for their zoo. They have 4 dogs, 5 cats, 7 bunnies, and 3 mice. It's been awhile since I've been around critters, it's a love that I share with Vickie and Rick. A family trait that we all possess. The last two days have been great. My good friend Amber came up to my new home two days in a row, we drove around the old neighborhood and hung out. She got to mee the critters and see my propsective home. We also talked about things also, which is so cool. Anyway, life's progressing and I see blue skies ahead.